Late night=me thinking way too much

leathersmel4 · September 2010

Insomnia has kicked in once again, and of course, it leads to me thinking way too much.

I am hoping,praying, PLEADING that this will be our cycle. I have a good reason for it too(besides just wanting to be KU already). If this is our cycle, then of course, I will have a July 2011 due date.

I am changing my major in August 2011 to EMT/Paramedic, and it would be perfect timing....BUT if I do not get pregnant this cycle, and I do the next cycle(or any other one following) that would mean I would deliver right in the middle of EMT/Paramedic school.---not so good.

I would have to do clinicals (which would require lifting patients) and I wouldn't be able to if I was pregnant. So now, I am freaking out, wondering if DH and I should stop REALLY trying until after EMT school.

But I won't even start EMT school until a year from now, and the program is a year long. SO, if we did put TTC on hold, that would be TWO years!!!! I just don't think I can wait that long. I am still young(almost 23), but I just don't think I can hold off that long.

Ugh...what is a girl to do!?!?!

Ok, sorry that was so long. Rant/vent over.