Infertility

I just wanted you ladies to know

that you're in my thoughts on a daily basis. I haven't been posting much since our DE IVF cycle failed because there are bigger issues in my marriage now because of IF.

I tried coming here one day to ask for support and reading all the BFP posts and seeing all the BFFN's made me bawl and I just couldn't do it. So, I stopped coming here because I have to figure out where my life is heading. 

Will I ever be back on here full time, only time will tell. But I wanted you ladies to know that you're always in my thoughts and I hope you all get to bring home your baby no matter how you get it. (((hugs)))

? We can only appreciate the miracle of a sunrise if we have waited in the darkness... ?

12/99 - Miscarriage at 12w - 6/08 - BFP - Miscarriage at 8w, 9/08 - BFP - Miscarriage at 8w2d, 12/08 - Found out I am a carrier of a Balanced Translocation between Chromosomes 8 & 16, 8/2010 - DE IVF = FAIL. 12/18/10 - Surprise BFP! Awaiting our Sticky Miracle! 12/20 - Beta #1-1208 * 12/27 Beta #2 - 6002 1/3/11 Beta #3 - 17,146. Beautiful little heart beating away! Stick little one, stick!

♥ Brielle Skye born August 17th, 2011 ♥ Lilypie First Birthday tickers

Re: I just wanted you ladies to know

  • ((((hugs))) Tarah, I'm so sorry to hear about your stress & I hope you come to find peace & happiness which you so deserve. Keep us posted on your journey if u can. Sheila
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  • Oh, hon...I'm so sorry to hear that you are having troubles in your marriage. As if all the IF crap isn't bad enough, right? I know I've never really chatted with you on here, but know that I'm thinking of you, and hoping that things start turning around for you soon. If you ever need a friendly ear, let me know..I'm a great listener! Take care, hon...
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    SAIFW
  • Big ((hugs)) Tarah!  I am so sorry you are going through a rough stretch!  I some some time helps and things start to look up for you.  I hope to see you back really soon!

     

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  • Tarah it is good to hear from you and I am so sorry you are going through a rough patch.  I am praying that things will work out and you have your baby soon...
    May 06: Natural PG= m/c, July 09: TI= m/c, November 09: TI=BFN, December 09: IUI= c/p
    IVF#1: start stims 1/26; ER 2/8; ET 2/13= BFN; FET#1: May 2010= m/c *NEW CLINIC Jan 2011* IVF#2: start stims 1/12; ER 1/22; ET 1/27= BFN; IVF#3: TBD
    ~SAIFW/PAIFW~
  • I'm so sorry things aren't going well for you right now.  If you ever need to chat, hit me up on Facebook.  You're in my thoughts.  *hugs*
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  • I do update my blog and if any of you would like to follow it, you're more than welcome too: We have Angel Wings

    You can also find me on Facebook if we're not friends on there already by searching for Tarah Johnson. 

     

    ? We can only appreciate the miracle of a sunrise if we have waited in the darkness... ?

    12/99 - Miscarriage at 12w - 6/08 - BFP - Miscarriage at 8w, 9/08 - BFP - Miscarriage at 8w2d, 12/08 - Found out I am a carrier of a Balanced Translocation between Chromosomes 8 & 16, 8/2010 - DE IVF = FAIL. 12/18/10 - Surprise BFP! Awaiting our Sticky Miracle! 12/20 - Beta #1-1208 * 12/27 Beta #2 - 6002 1/3/11 Beta #3 - 17,146. Beautiful little heart beating away! Stick little one, stick!

    ♥ Brielle Skye born August 17th, 2011 ♥ Lilypie First Birthday tickers
  • I'm sorry you are going through such a rough time.  Lots of hugs to you.
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  • (((((HUGS TARAH))))))) Im sorry you and DH are having issues but you look great!  I love that picture of you.

    You know where to find me if you want to talk... 

    Lilypie - Personal pictureLilypie First Birthday tickers So far we've done: Clomid Challenge/HSG/SA 1 Unmedicated IUI 2 Clomid IUIs 2 Femara IUIs 1 injectable IUI -2nd Femara IUI resulted in a CP (Beta was 16) -Another CP in May. (Beta 19 Prog 13) -Ectopic Pg - (Beta 27, 67, 430, 850) - methotrexate shot & biopsy -Forced 3 month Break 1/4/10 - Uterine septum removed by Hysteroscopy 1/18/10 - Told I have inflammation in uterus. 6 weeks of antibiotics. 2/27/10 - Another confirmed ectopic. 2 shots of methotrexate after an ER visit. Currently doing acupuncture and trying to lose weight. TTC since 3/07 -
  • Tarah I am so sorry that you are having such a rough time right now. My heart breaks for you. I pray that you will have what you so deserve one day soon.

    I will look you up on FB :-) 

    TTC since 8/07 DX - Severe MFI/azoospermia & MTHFR/ TESEs found sperm - 7/08 & 6/09/ 12/08 - IVF#1 - BFN/ 6/09 - IVF #2 - cancelled due to OHSS risk (had retrieval)/ 7/09 - FET #1 - BFN/ 9/09 - FET #2 - BFN/ 11/09 - IVF #3 with new RE cancelled twice - 10/09 & 11/09/ 1/10 - IVF #3 take 3 - BFN/ 4/10 - IVF #4 - first ever BFP on 5/13/10!!! 108 @ 10dp3dt/ 2nd beta 311!/ sono on 5/28/10 said TWINS!!!! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
  • ((hugs)) I am so sorry things are so bad for you right now. I'm just so sorry. IF sucks so bad.
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  • I think of you often, Tarah, and (although I'm not a big fan of commenting) enjoy keeping updated through FB. You're such a strong woman - don't ever doubt yourself. {{HUGS}} 

    TTC 7+ years - 3 failed IUI's; not going the IVF route; stopped treatment December 2013.

    Became licensed for Foster Care: March 2011
    Adoption Finalized: December 2013


    LISTEN TO THE MUSN'TS CHILD, LISTEN TO THE DON'TS.
    LISTEN TO THE SHOULDN'TS, THE IMPOSSIBLES, THE WONT'S.
    LISTEN TO THE NEVER HAVES, THEN LISTEN CLOSE TO ME.
    ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN, CHILD, ANYTHING CAN BE.
    -Shel Silverstein



  • I'm sorry Tarah, I have stopped posting for similar reasons in my marriage, so I understand how you are feeling... IF is so hard.  I'm so sorry you have been down such a rough road, I truly cannot even imagine.  Hugs to you and all good thoughts headed your way!!
  • I'm so sorry things are so difficult right now.  Huge (((HUGS)))
    Our IVF miracles arrived on 7/20/11 at 37 weeks after 3 weeks of hospital bedrest! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers "Stubbornly persist, and you will find that the limits of your stubbornness go well beyond the stubbornness of your limits." ~Robert Brault
  • You are in my thoughts. Thanks for posting such a thoughtful message. I hope that you and your DH work it out and can move forward. IF sucks so bad!
  • I know you don't know me, but {{hugs}}
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  • Hey hon, I miss seeing you around, but understand. I hate IF.
    PAIF and SAIF Always Welcome!
    TTC since 2007
    6 IUIs, 3 IVFs, and 2 m/c :< PCOS, Blood Clotting Disorder & MFI
    IVF #2 Aug 2011 is a BFN:<
    IVF #3 March 2012 is a BFN
    Not sure what to do now. Sad and lost.
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
  • (((HUGE HUGS))) 
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  • *Hugs*  You know I'm here for you if you need anything- just FB me.

    I'm sorry you're having a hard time hon.  I hope things get better or at least there's an open line of communication to work things out so they can get better soon.   

    Surprise BFP after 5 yrs of TTC
  • ((hugs))
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  • I'm sorry cutie.  I know you'll be a mom one day and I'm always around if you need to talk.

    Take care of yourself and ((HUGS))

     

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    Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
    Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)

    It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
    MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
  • Lots of hugs Tarah. I'm so sorry you're going through a difficult period. I really hope things work themselves out very soon.
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  • (((hugs))) sweetie.  We are always here for you.
    TTC since 8/2004
    Me - DX Hashimoto's Disease, Hypothyroid, Rheumatoid Arthritis
    DH - DX Azoospermia - Sertoli Cell Syndrome
    DS-IUI #1-4 BFN IVF #1 - BFP! It's a boy!!!
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  • i'm so sorry you are going through so much stress right now. IF freaking sucks. i hope you are able to find peace and happiness soon ((HUGS))
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  • I am so sorry hon.  I hope things get a little easier for you.  ((big hugs))
    TTC since 07/2009
    Me: PCOS, Blood/Immune Issues DH: Low all 3
    Jun.- Sep. 2010 IUI#1-#3 = BFN
    Oct. 2010 = IVF #1 = B/G Twins (passed away Feb. 2011)
    May 2011 = Myomectomy and trans-abdominal cerclage (TAC)
    Sep. 2011 = Surprise BFP = C/P
    Feb. 2012 = sFET #1 = BFN
    Feb.2012 = Hail Mary IUI #4 = BFN
    April/May 2012 = FET #2 w/our last two embies = BFP (Please let this be it!)
    Beta #1 8dp5/6dt = 234 Beta #2 10dp5/6dt = 695 Beta #3 12dp5/6dt = 1796 Beta #4 17dp5/6dt = 17,888 U/S #1 May 17, 2012 = Twins
    Baby B's heart stop beating at 9 weeks 5 days
    Our little miracle baby is a boy. :)

    Baby Boy Owen and Baby Girl Avery were born too early on Feb. 13, 2011 due to a pedunculated fibroid, incompetent cervix and suspected placental abruption.
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    "What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose." - Henry Ward Beecher
    SAIF/PAIF Welcome
    Lots of love and luck to my PAIF/3T/IF Veteran ladies, especially my dear friend Zookie. Congrats to Papps, Teach84 and Starbuck on their little ones.
  • Love hearing from you.  I hope you are feeling better very soon.

    All the best to you.  ((HUGS)) 

    My Story and Blog:
    The Conception Craze

    1/2009- TTTC
    After 7 rounds of clomid and HcG, Three failed IUI's with an ectopic pregnancy, two shots of methotrextate, ER visits, breaks, low (3%) morphology One IVF cycle (lupron, gonal-F) that ended in another ectopic, more methotrexate, A Lap to disconnect both tubes, remove endo and a hydrosalphinx, . . .we are finally expecting TWINS from FET#1!
    1.11. 2011: Beginning FET cycle!
    3.11.11- FET! (DH's birthday!) 2 blasts transfered!
    3.20.11- BETA #1 BFP!!! 272! (9dp5dt)
    3.23.11- BETA #2 1346!!! (12dp5dt)
    4.8.11- U/S #1. . TWINS!!! . . .TWO BOYS!
    9.10.11-My beautiful Boys arrive unexpectedly at 28 weeks, 6 days. imageimage
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  • i love ya babe! i hope you find peace in your life wherever your journey takes you. :::HUGS:::    And i just sent you a PM on FB xoxo
    S/PAIFW
    Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
    PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
    Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
    Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
    Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
    Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
    IVF #3
  • LOTS of hugs!  I'm so sorry coming to the board makes you so sad.  I hope that you can get through the problems with your marriage right now due to IF.  You are a strong woman -- please take care and you are in our thoughts as well!
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  • Tons of ((Hugs)) headed your way.  I'm so sorry you are going through this.  Please know we are here for you to lean on.

     

    *P/SAIFW* TTC since 1/08 Clomid, 2 IUIs, 4 IVFs, FET 7 losses Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I'm sorry you're going through a rough time. ::hugs:: My thoughts go out to you, hun.
  • (((((((hugs)))))))
  • Sending T&P's your way. ((HUGS)).

    TTC 12/2009
    Me: 32 - Stage II Endo / DH: 36 - Low count and morphology (1%)
    IUIs 1-3 BFN, lap Dec. 2010, IUIs 4-6 BFN
    IVF w/ICSI #1 - ER 2/8: 24R 19M 9F ET 2/13 2-5 day blasts (no frosties) = BFP - b/g twins!
    E & C Born 10/19/2012
    Lilypie First Birthday tickers
  • hugs. I am so sorry that there is this stress in your life and your marriage. I am hopeful that you can take the time and space you need, but know that we are here for a hug at anytime. none of this is easy.
    m/c#1 07/16/08 (11 weeks), m/c#2 10/10/08 (8 weeks). and then nothing since except every test possible (no answers). IUI#1 and #2: BFNs Super lucky to be buddies with Peetie. Our out of nowhere, surprise DD born 5/29/2011
  • Big ((hugs))!  Take care of yourself and we'll be here if/when you're ready to come back.  IF sucks and I truly wish you the best!
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  • Im so sorry (((hugs)))
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  • Hey love. You know my number, call me if you want to talk tomorrow. Well, I'm pretty sure we'll talk anyway. You know I'm here for you anytime. (((hugs)))
    DX PCOS w/IR 01/08.
    Currently pg with our 1st after 6.5 yrs of IF (thank you IVF)
     
    My IF/Everything Blog
    There's No Crying in Baseball
    ***My posts are always SAIFW**
  • ::hugs::

    Thinking of you and hoping that everything all works out.

    We are all here for you whenever you need us.

    TTC #2 since June '08

    ~*DD 10.21.07*~

    dx unexplained

    IUI #1-4 BFN

    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

    EDD 8/25

    *PAIFW/SAIFW*

  • (((hugs)))
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  • {{{{ Huge Huge Huge Hugs}}}}, T!  Please know that I have been thinking about you and will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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