Introducing myself

I posted on here about a week and a half ago, but I haven't since. Sorry about that. In summary, I went to my OB and told the nurse I felt depressed and then the Dr didn't say anything to me about it when she came to see me.

Anyways, I've found a new OBGYN I'll be going to as soon as my post partum care is done (my stitches are taking FOREVER to heal so I have to go back for follow up appt's to the same OB until they completely heal.)

After a climactically bad weekend of contemplating leaving my husband and feeling overwhelmed, I called the nurse for the OB that delivered my son. I sat with the phone in my hand for a good hour before I got up enough nerve to call. I left a teary VM for the nurse and she just called back. She asked me what I was feeling and told me that she's going to catch the Dr between patients and call back with the Dr's recommendation of coming in to talk to her or just handling this over the phone. She tried to comfort me by telling me this is a big change and it takes some adjusting, which did kind of make me feel better that she wasn't being judge mental or dis concerning.

The one fear I had during my pregnancy was of developing some sort of PPD and it feels like it's come true. I feel relieved but at the same time I feel like I've opened a can of worms. Thank you to the ladies that replied to my last post.  I hope this gets better.