I am such a wreck today. I just keep bursting into tears. Never in my life have I felt like a complete failure, until now. If I was a drinker I would probably go out and get piss drunk.
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Love & luck to my 3TC girls. Congrats to Omega-The boys are here!
If there's one thing I've learned while waiting my turn,
it's that in each life some rain falls but you also get some sun.
After 2 years & 2 losses, our little man arrived 8-2011.
I feel like it would be less work to invent a time machine then go back in time to when life was without this need to have a baby. I keep wondering why they heck I want a pooping, crying bundle of responsibility. It is like I cannot see the logic in this need to procreate. But I also can not get rid of it. Still who wants to join me in making a time machine? I am sure it would be less emotionally draining than the hell that is ttc.
I feel like it would be less work to invent a time machine then go back in time to when life was without this need to have a baby. I keep wondering why they heck I want a pooping, crying bundle of responsibility. It is like I cannot see the logic in this need to procreate. But I also can not get rid of it. Still who wants to join me in making a time machine? I am sure it would be less emotionally draining than the hell that is ttc.
I feel like it would be less work to invent a time machine then go back in time to when life was without this need to have a baby. I keep wondering why they heck I want a pooping, crying bundle of responsibility. It is like I cannot see the logic in this need to procreate. But I also can not get rid of it. Still who wants to join me in making a time machine? I am sure it would be less emotionally draining than the hell that is ttc.
So very true. I was just thinking this morning, what I would give to go back to the days where my every waking moment wasn't filled with thoughts of getting pregnant. Sorry you're having a hard day. {{{HUGS}}}
So sorry you are having a yucky Monday! I can't even rember what life was like before TTGP. I would LOVE to help you with the time machine. I would liek to go back and tell myself to stop taking BCP wight after I got married and to start trying much earlier. I would tell my younger self that there was nothing to be scared about being KU (the idea used to freak the shi* out of me to where I never thought I would want to get KU) and now that is all I want. Lots of hugs sent yoru way.
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Re: Pity party.
bfp 1 - m/c 1.31.11 @ 10 weeks
bfp 2 - baby born via c-section on 5.4.12 @ 37 weeks
bfp 3 - blighted ovum/d&c on 4.13.13 @ 8 weeks
bfp 4 - 3rd IUI, very late BFN with super low P, c/p
bfp 5 - natural bfp while on lupron, baby born via RCS on 4.27.15 @ 39 weeks
bfp 6 - surprise! baby born via RCS on 11.13.16 @ 38 weeks
You are not a failure...perfection just takes time
Hope you will get your perfect baby soon!
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Mar-May 2011: 3 Cycles IUI + Clomid = BFN Jan 2012: Injectables + TI = ??
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((hugs)) to you.
Love & luck to my 3TC girls. Congrats to Omega-The boys are here!
If there's one thing I've learned while waiting my turn,
it's that in each life some rain falls but you also get some sun.
After 2 years & 2 losses, our little man arrived 8-2011.
Sorry, that really sucks. I am in a pity party mood today too so I'll join.
Trying to get sperminated since February 2010
Mar-May 2011: 3 Cycles IUI + Clomid = BFN Jan 2012: Injectables + TI = ??
My Cooking (and More) Blog
Isn't that the sad truth!
I'm really sorry! ((BIG hugs))
So very true. I was just thinking this morning, what I would give to go back to the days where my every waking moment wasn't filled with thoughts of getting pregnant.
Sorry you're having a hard day. {{{HUGS}}}