PPD

uagirl · September 2010

I was diagnosed with PPD today. I thought that I was doing okay and that my emotions would get better, but over the past few weeks I've been spending an hour or more each evening in tears about everything from how Charlotte deserves a better mom to how much I hate my body right now.

I haven't been able to enjoy my time home with LO because I feel so trapped in my own head. I love her more than anything, but there have been days that I've wished she was someone else's child because I am so sure that I'm failing at this.

DH was the one who insisted that I talk to my OB, and threatened to call himself if I didn't. I knew I shouldn't be so upset on a daily basis, but thought I could handle it without medication or counseling. I'm starting medication tonight and have recommendations for a couple of counselors that I will be contacting this week.

DH is the only one who knows about the PPD because I am too ashamed to tell my family. I'm worried they will look at me as a failure and think that I don't deserve her. I had to tell someone and I hope you ladies don't mind.

JameyRN · September 2010

I am so sorry that you are going through this. Do not be ashamed about it though. It is great that you are getting help!!

Have you ever read www.theheirtoblair.com? It is a blog and the writer is being treated for PPD/PPA.

Let us know if you need anything and I will be praying for you!

tippykins · September 2010

((hugs)) i'm so sorry you are dealing with this. speaking as a new momma myself, "baby blues" is very common. there is just so much going on inside (and outside) of our bodies after having a baby that it starts to get very overwhelming. i cried many a time since having him. so i understand what you are going through.

just know that you are NOT failing her. you are a great mother (if you weren't you would not have written this post), and you are doing the absolute best for her! please don't beat yourself up (it's easier said than done). unfortunately babies don't come with instruction manuals, so we are all just trying to figure things out step by step. and kudos to you for recognizing that you would benefit from talking to someone. again it proves what a great mother you are. there is no reason to be ashamed at.all. ((hugs))

star21gazer · September 2010

I am so sorry you are going through this. I think to some extent we have all been there and felt like that, just some worse than others. The important thing is that you recognized it and got help. You are a great mother and things will get better. I was going to tell you about the heir to blair blog as well. She is/was being treated for it and she is very open to what happened to her. Big Hugs!

ameliaandmatt · September 2010

I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. Being a new mom is very overwhelming and there's absolutely nothing to be ashamed of in talking to a professional and taking medication. 11 days after DD was born my stepFIL passed away and I felt like I was never going to get out of the "black hole" in my head. I talked to a counselor and was able to work through my feelings. It was the best thing I could've done for me and my family. You are a great mom and you will get through this. ((HUGS))

hamillm · September 2010

I hate you are dealing with this. But, as everyone else has said, you are doing a great job with Charlotte and talking with someone about this just proves you are a wonderful mother. Praying for you!

mrssamuels2b · September 2010

So very sorry that you are experiencing this but please know that you are, in no way, alone...I went through a rough patch after having Preston. There is light at the end of the tunnel...Pray often and know that God gave you this blessing because you are strong enough to handle it...You are so brave for getting help and I also applaud your DH for recognizing it...you two are already awesome parents! Keep us posted...Love ya, lots!

12106mrsmun · September 2010

Big [[[HUGS]]]! You are getting help and that is half the battle. Please don't be ashamed of this. It's a chemical imbalance and it doesn't make you any less deserving of having your beautiful girl. We're always here for you!!

Soon2BMrsWiley · September 2010

I'm sorry sorry you are going through this. But I am glad you have a persistent DH and that you are getting help now. You are an awesome mom to Charlotte and I hope you see that for yourself soon! We love you, Liz!

MissLMS · September 2010

I'm so sorry you are going through this. But know that you are an awesome mom and that you are doing the right thing by seeking some help. While I didn't have PPD, I am seeing a counselor now for depression post-m/c. It really does help.

AUHOLLEY06 · September 2010

I have to say first, Charlotte is just darling and I love the hat. Also I totally feel for you. I think anyone that has gone through a pregnancy and/or given birth has had emotional issues. Hormones are nothing to mess with. If you or anyone around you thinks you need help, seek it, there is nothing wrong with that. I am glad you were able to tell us, we are here for you.

MrsAO · September 2010

So many hugs!! I know the feeling, I think all of us do to some extent. You are a great mom and so brave to reach out for help. That's already something your DD will admire you for later on. You obviously have a great DH as well. Things will get better, you will feel better. Until then - more hugs for you! I'll be praying for you and your family.

oliverj3326 · September 2010

I am so sorry you are having to go through this...but know that you aren't alone! Keep your head up and always remember to talk about your feelings/emotions...they are much better out then in! You will pull through this with flying colors! Chin up!

ricejl · September 2010

I'm so sorry you are going through this. As a new Mom I feel like a failure sometimes and don't know why God trusted me with this precious little baby but he did because he knows that I can handle it and so can you. You are a wonderful Mom and I know that from your posts that you wrote while you were pregnant. Charlotte is such a beautiful baby and you both will make it through this tough time. Lots of hugs and prayers to you!

ImMrsMoses · September 2010

I can't imagine exactly how you are feeling, but I have some idea. In the past, I suffered from severe depression. I got the help I needed, but it was a struggle for me to do so because I felt like a failure. I felt ashamed that I needed meds to be "happy" again.

I was SO wrong! Depression is a chemical issue...it is nothing that you can control with a positive attitude or all the effort in the world. You did the right thing by getting the help you need, and I know that you will feel differently once you are on the road to recovery.

You are, and will continue to be, a great mother to Charlotte. It sounds to me like your DH is incredibly supportive too, so that is all you can ask for. I promise things will get better. I'll be keeping you in my prayers too.

FutureMrsWagner · September 2010

I'm so sorry you are going through this. Your family may surprise you though, and be more supportive that you woudl expect. You need people who you are close to and who love you to be there for you and for you to be able to talk to. Maybe you should reconsider letting them know what is going on. I hope the meds and therapy help you. The NB stage is definitely tough and feeling down about your body is a really hard thing to feel too. Don't hesitate to vent here...that's what we're here for!

kc0721 · September 2010

I'm so sorry that you're going through that. Writing this post and seeking help just proves how brave you are and how you want the best for you and your family. Don't feel bad or ashamed, we're all here for you. Charlotte is beautiful and is SO lucky to have you as her mom. Never doubt your ability to be a mom. Also, kudos to your hubby for recognizing the symptoms of PPD and making a suggestion to speak with someone. I hope the meds and counseling help out, we're all here if you need us. (((hugs)))

starsmaycollide · September 2010

Don't feel ashamed Liz! You can't help brain chemistry!

These things happen, but you are a good person and a good mommy and I hope you'll be feeling better very, very soon.

uagirl · September 2010

Thank you ladies so much for the encouragement. As upset as I am about the entire situation (meds, counseling, etc.) I know that I'm doing it all for DD and she is so worth it. There is a strange sense of relief that comes with knowing that I'm not crazy and there is help available to get me through this, including you ladies.

crollin · September 2010

You are a WONDERFUL mom to Charlotte and she is a very lucky little girl to have you as a mommy! I am so sorry you are going through this. I hope things get better soon.

soon2Bmrs.AGEE · September 2010

Oh Liz, I am so sorry you are going through this. Huge Hugs! I am very glad you are getting help. You will overcome this and you are a wonderful mom! You will be in my prayers. I hope the cloud begins to lift soon.

FWIW, I start seeing a counselor beginning of October for all I have been going through. Please don't be ashamed. We are here for you.

jiffy-pop · September 2010

Oh, sweetie! You are NOT a failure! You know you love your daughter, your husband knows you love your daughter and that's all that matters! Calling your doc about how you're feeling just proves how much you love her! PPD is VERY common. I read that 10% of pregnancies result in PPD. That means if you were to walk into a room of ten people, at least one will have experienced it. You are NOT alone in this! You have NOTHING to be ashamed of!

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