TTC After a Loss 6 Months+

I think I need committed...

Here we are at the day of reckoning and I feel like AF is showing up but there's nothing.  If she's not here by lunch then I have to call the doc and postpone surgery yet again.  Which means, due to scheduling conflicts it will late Oct., Nov. til they can get me in again, which means I won't be starting the process of actually TTC again until probably early next year. 

I am a basket case, crying like an idiot and so freakin angry at the world.  I want to just be able to have the surgery and move forward, this waiting is making me feel like I'm losing my mind.  I wish I didn't have to go to work today at all so I'm going in late after I try to get myself in a position where I can at least fake a smile.  I am mess and I'm sorry to vent but I know you guys understand better than anybody else.  I'm not ready to hear people say to me "Well it will all work out".  Fvck my body, FML!!!  I hope to hell I can at least have an easy day at work cause I don't plan on leaving my office most of the day, I'm not fit for public presentation.

Sorry to start the day on a negative note, I'm just crying hysterically and needed to talk to someone.  I hope you are all having great days and that you have days filled with puppies and rainbows galore! lol.

Married 8/23/09 Dx: Endometriosis mc 2003, mc 2005, mc Oct. 2009 and ectopic pg Feb. 2010 Baby Girl Gracie Mae born 5 weeks early on 7/6/11. Baby boy JT born full term on 7/5/12. We are blessed!

Re: I think I need committed...

  • {{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}

    I am sorry that your body is not cooperating.  I hope that AF shows up by lunch time.

    Lilypie Premature Baby tickers IVF #1 BFP Beta #1 528 & Beta #2 1514
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  • i'm so sorry you're going through this..I wish I could say something to help you more but know that we're all thinking of you and hope AF is here by lunch.  (hugs))
  • I'm so sorry.  Just know that we understand and that we will all be thinking of you.  I am praying that AF shows and you can go ahead with the surgery.  ((hugs))
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  • I'm so sorry, Macey.  I really hope AF shows today.  (((hugs)))
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  • ((hugs)) hope af arrives by lunch. I hate when our bodies don't cooperate.

    Jenn

    image 3 IUI's all BFN

    IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN

    Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10

    BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11

    Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11

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  • I'm so sorry this is such a frustrating situation for you.  {{BIG HUGS}} to you, and I hope AF is knocking on your door before lunch.
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  • Sorry you're going through this.  Hope she comes today.
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  • I am so sorry (((((hugs)))))
  • I'm so sorry.  I hope AF still shows for you.
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    Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle!
    April 2011 CP @ 5 weeks
  • i'm so sorry.  that was me yesterday, i was a mess all day.  :o(  i wish we could all give you a giant hug.  Waiting sucks. 
    Image and video hosting by TinyPic 8.15.07 NATHAN 6.13.09 - 6.14.09 WYATT born 32w3d Gone too soon, RIP. 4.21.10 BFP - missed m/c - D&C on 5.27.10. 1.31.11 BFP - 1st cycle IUI + Follistim + Trigger (2 mature follies)Beta 1 @ 13dpiui: 199 Beta 2 @ 15dpiui: 527 10.7.11 ELIANA(Ellie)ROSE (39w3d)Team Green turned Team Pink - VBAC & ALL NATURAL 6lbs 11oz 19 &1/2in
  • Yuck!  I'm so, so sorry.  ((HUGS))  I can't even think of something funny & lighthearted to say in this situation.  It just sucks.  Hope she shows herself on time & that you're able to successfully hibernate at work.  ((MORE HUGS.))
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  • I'm sorry.

    BFP 12/18/2009. HB 1/4/2010. NO HB 1/18/2010. D&C 1/19/2010
    April 2011 IUI #1 BFN. High FSH and other issues.
    May 2011 Chose to build our family through adoption
    September 2011 Actively waiting for a match
    11/26/11 Surprise BFP * DD born 7/23/12 Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I'm sorry - I hope she showed for you today.  {{hugs}}
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