TheMrsWithTheMostess

OK, here's the real me for once. Bare with me because I'm tapping away on my iPhone. I can't do line breaks. That was my secret. It was referring to real life and not The Bump. It's true that I used to have a large group of friends on this board. Most commonly referred to as the CKC. I removed myself from the group for a few different reasons. It's not really worth it to go into the deep specific nor do I think it's appropriate to name names and reasons. I'm not a part of it and I'll leave it at that. It's also true that I am a true single mom now. That was my choice and wholeheartedly it was the best decision I've made. Matt wasn't good for me. Matt wasn't good for Colin. While I feel that a huge part of who he is is a good person, he's not a good father and has no drive whatsoever in life which was stressful to me. When he was around I felt like I was still doing everything in regards to taking care of Colin, but I also felt like I had to take care of him. I was over it. I also could not forgive him for having me arrested. I tried and tried and tried. Hours and hours of individual and couples therapy didn't help. We were broken beyond repair. While it's a sad situation for everyone involved, especially Colin, I stand by my decision. I have a perfect son. I have a job. I have an amazing boss who is like a father and will do anything to help me out and make sure I'm ok. I have a network of co-workers who are there for me and who understand. I have parents who help me from a distance. I have great friends who I've known for 10+ years and are there waiting for me when I go home to visit. I have amazing health other than being a little underweight. I have the ability to to reach out to old foes and discuss our issues and call a truce (happened to a bumpie today. Not naming names because of the whole guilty by association stuff). I don't consider anything that is said to me on the boards as karma. Truthfully, I don't even believe in karma. I've done a lot of crappy things and said a lot of crappy things both here and in real life. I don't believe that because of that my world will come crashing down. And now let the backlash of this post begin... I'll put my T mask back on and fight back. Buy probably not until tomorrow because phones are slow and I need to pump and go to bed.