We dropped dd off at 730 for her first day of daycare today. She did ok. DH and I both went today, but usually it will be DH at drop off. She sat right down and ate breakfast with the other kids and seemed ok until we started to walk away. I was contemplating whether to say goodbye to her or just try to sneak out while she was happy and distracted. I chose to say "bye sweetie, I love you", which was maybe a mistake because that's when she started calling for DH and when we walked by her room when we were outside, we could hear her crying.
I called an hour after drop off and they said she was happy and listening to stories with "not a tear in her eyes", so hopefully she's ok.
I hope this gets easier, I feel like a terrible mom, even though I know that millions of parents take their kids to daycare and it does not make us terrible parents at all, but I'm just feeling that way right now. Normally I work night shift and so I will be sleeping while dd is at daycare, but last night I was put on call and got some sleep so I'm awake today and worrying about her. I thought about not taking her, but we have to pay for fulltime either way, and I figured it's better to start now than put it off.
Sigh.
Thanks for listening.
Re: First day of daycare :( Hard day...
It is good to say goodbye and not to sneak out. I always reassure DS that I will see him later in the afternoon. DS has been at daycare since he was 12 weeks and he cries during drop off for about 20 seconds and is good for the day.
It does get easier I promise. It has gotten to the point I feel bad when DS does not go to daycare since he loves his friends and teachers so much. Good luck and enjoy your day to yourself. Go and pamper yourself or relax.
You should always say goodbye, even though it seems to make thing harder, it is better in the long run. If you sneak out it will cause you LO to become super clingy and anxious whenever you are around because she never knows when you will disappear. You just going to the bathroom at home will cause a melt down.
GL, it will get easier!