It's incredibly weird for me, but i think i see an up to my losses. I love my babies so much it nearly kills me every day to miss them. However, they have given me an ability to appreciate this LO in a way i don't know if anyone who hasn't lost can. From watching other pg women in my life and occasionally lurking on 2nd tri, i can't believe the amount of pettiness and lack of yearning for their little ones some pg women have. I feel blessed to be this open and familiar with the love of my babies that never fades and only gets stronger when they aren't with us.
We're still miserable and uncomfortable a lot of times, and i think we should allow ourselves the chance to complain. But here on this board, not a one of us takes anything for granted. You ladies have been incredibly supportive and comforting. thank you. i just had to share before this feeling is overshadowed by worry again.