Self torture

Izabella22 · August 2010

So instead of doing something productive in my 2ww like twiddle my thumbs I've decided to let the craziness loose, so badly that I do things that are going to inevitably going to lead to a serious crash if I wind up not pg this month. I'd like to share because I feel like unless I write it down, it is just going to make me some sick closet hopeful pgcy freak.

So I look up every day what my edd would potentially be, i look at my calendar, look at when I recorded sexytime on my chart, get all gleeful it looks like we got our timing right and then... I went so far as to put my lmp into a "generate pgcy calendar" thing and discovered that my 1st ultrasound would be the first week of October when H and I have off, 1st tri would end a couple weeks before Thanksgiving, at which point I would announce to family the good news, I'd hit 20 wks right after Xmas and would know whether we were having a boy or girl, 3rd tri would start shortly after Valentines day, and my due date would be a week or so after DH's b'day, and almost 1 yr 1 mo after my m/c. *HUGE SIGH*

Ok maybe I'm a sick hopeful pgcy freak anyways but yeah... I have another week to go before I can even think about testing, cripes, I hope it doesn't get worse! Embarrassed

AmyRM · August 2010

I could have written this myself. Every cycle gets calculated and planned, and I get excited and hopeful. Might as well just go stand in a room full of pregnant women.

Hi, I'm Amy, and I'm a freak too.

EclairAngst · August 2010

Izabella22:
So instead of doing something productive in my 2ww like twiddle my thumbs I've decided to let the craziness loose, so badly that I do things that are going to inevitably going to lead to a serious crash if I wind up not pg this month. I'd like to share because I feel like unless I write it down, it is just going to make me some sick closet hopeful pgcy freak.

So I look up every day what my edd would potentially be, i look at my calendar, look at when I recorded sexytime on my chart, get all gleeful it looks like we got our timing right and then... I went so far as to put my lmp into a "generate pgcy calendar" thing and discovered that my 1st ultrasound would be the first week of October when H and I have off, 1st tri would end a couple weeks before Thanksgiving, at which point I would announce to family the good news, I'd hit 20 wks right after Xmas and would know whether we were having a boy or girl, 3rd tri would start shortly after Valentines day, and my due date would be a week or so after DH's b'day, and almost 1 yr 1 mo after my m/c. *HUGE SIGH*

Ok maybe I'm a sick hopeful pgcy freak anyways but yeah... I have another week to go before I can even think about testing, cripes, I hope it doesn't get worse!

Oh no. You've totally just unleashed the demon in me!

::::sneaks off to calculate everything about MF's timing ::::

mc2010ttc · August 2010

um....i do this too

liveforhim · August 2010

You are not alone! I have a little longer than a week til I can test and I do the same things..:( Here's to hoping for our BFP's and sticky babies this cycle!

Kristin&Adam · August 2010

I do that too, you are not alone!

Izabella22 · September 2010

You ladies are the best - you make me feel so much better!

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