TTC After a Loss

Something that made me sad today

Just one of those little things that catches you off guard and tugs at your (still hurting) heart...

At the supermarket I got out of my car and as I closed the door I noticed the car beside me had two carseats in the back.

Gulp.  That would have been my car in 23 +/- weeks.  

Then I distracted myself from the immediate sadness by getting into the market as quickly as possible.

I feel like the things you know are going to happen (ex: two pg women at bridal shower I attended last weekend) you can prepare for, but the surprise things (even the very little things like this) can be rough.  Does that happen to you, too?

Re: Something that made me sad today

  • Yeah. Happens a lot. 

    I was at a Jack Johnson concert. The song from the curious george soundtrack elicited the reaction from me of "Oh, this is the theme we should do the nursery in!" then immediately to tears when I realized I wasn't pregnant any longer. This was 4 months post loss. 

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  • I started crying today listening to a radio show. Someone was talking about how adoption made her a mom. I burst into tears just thinking about how much I want to be a mom, whether it's through having my own baby or adopting, whatever, I just want to be a mom so badly.
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  • These are the moments that pain the most! I completely agree expected moments are so much easier. It is the little things, like a full back seat or the bib that I bought for my husband that can knock you down.

    I am sorry for our loss..

  • Yeah.  We were working a booth at Octoberfest this weekend and I saw a little girl eating a pickle.  I teared up b/c I LOVED pickles as a kid (still do!) and I thought "my baby would love pickles, too."  So stupid.  :(
  • Yeah. I understand. It's one thing when we can prepare ourselves for it (like at a baby shower), but another thing when it comes out of nowhere and -bam- reminds us of what we loss all over again.


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    BFP #2 via IUI ~ m/c
    BFP #3 via cancelled IUI ~ C (2lb 3oz; HELLP) 5/16/11
    BFP #4 via the natural (free!) way ~ E (8lb 11oz) 9/13/12
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  • I agree those moments are the worst.  They take you by surprise and knock the wind out of you.  ((Hugs))

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  • I hate when little every day things bring it back - hugs!
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