TTC After a Loss

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Evelyn Born at 24wks 6days on May 22, 2010 due to pre-e Passed away May 25, 2010

BFP# 2 Delivered 6wks early due to preeclampsia
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  • I said I was going to do some laundry today... i didn't even do one load.


    BFP#1 {Cashew} - 9.19.09 EDD 5.26.10
    The day you first lay in my arms, you made my life complete.
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    BFP#2 {Almond} - 2.1.11 EDD 10.12.11 C/P 2.11.11

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  • I am afraid to POAS and be disappointed......
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  • I promised myself I'd write a quick article this afternoon on a new topic for publication on my firm's website. Instead I have been on-line ordering vitex and pom capsules and trying to search out a regimen for taking them.  Also ordered a CBEFM.  If DH knew this is why I've been holed up in the office all afternoon he'd be giving me major eyeroll.  Huh?

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    BFP #1 5/2010 - Missed m/c at 8 weeks
    BFP #2 2/2011
    Baby G welcomed with love and relief 10/2011
    Surprise BFP 1/8/2013...say what? Baby A arrived 9/2013

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  • I'm still working from home right now and I'll be in early to the office tomorrow (and most likely the 2 days after that), probably staying late as well.  I really just want to throw up my hands and say EFF-IT!  And then drink a nice big glass of wine.  Drinks  I wish I were still a full time college student.  They have it made.
  • I pretended to still be asleep this morning when the boys wanted out so Bill would have to get up instead.  The bed was too comfy to get up before the sun. 
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  • I know this month is probably out for me, but I'm still clinging to hope that I will O in the next few days even though OPKs don't agree with my hope.   I think stress did it for me this month. =(
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  • i had ice cream for dinner.....ALOT of icecream.

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  • Sometimes I find DH useless.  Tonight is one of those nights.

     

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    BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010

    BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011

    BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013

    BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy.  Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)    

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    BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014

  • imagepigtails1031:
    I am afraid to POAS and be disappointed......

    I know.  I always think the odds are against me.  How long are you trying to hold out for?

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  • I was at a bbq today and just kept drinking (wine and beer) and drinking because more and more pg ladies kept showing up.  Now I'm back at home and just want to go to bed already.
  • I have a boatload of stuff to do but I just want to sit here and bump.  Also, I feel bad b/c we ate at my parents and DH volunteered to play ball with my nephew.  On the way home he told me playing ball with a little boy wasn't his favorite thing to do right now.  He's not into sports, but I know he was thinking of Elijah.  :( 
  • imagejamilynn9:

    imagepigtails1031:
    I am afraid to POAS and be disappointed......

    I know.  I always think the odds are against me.  How long are you trying to hold out for?

    I think I will tomorrow and everyday after~HAHA
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  • imagepigtails1031:
    imagejamilynn9:

    imagepigtails1031:
    I am afraid to POAS and be disappointed......

    I know.  I always think the odds are against me.  How long are you trying to hold out for?

    I think I will tomorrow and everyday after~HAHA

    Well, good luck.  I'd try to wait longer, but easier said than done.  I'll be thinking of you and hoping so much!

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  • I'm frustrated that I think this month is out for us.  Today was a big day for BD (after I finally figured out my O issues from last week) and had a solid "+" OPK yesterday and today. 

    DH had performance anxiety (only happens when we TTC, and not all the time), so I think our chances are blown for this month.  He had results at the end, but--and I warn TMI--he had to pull out to get things "going" again, and I don't think went back in time to leave his "results" in me much at all.

    :-(

    I felt horrible for him, but am so frustrated at the same time (of course I didn't let him know this latter part).  Very conflicted, and wanting a healthy sticky baby in my belly already!

  • I am highly annoyed We have some friends over wanted to come over and play games and cook dinner that has turned into everyone is playing games while I cook dinner... and this stupid thing is taking forever to cook.. and it's my bed time.
  • I'm already driving myself insane because my brother is getting ready to buy an engagement ring and I'm convinced he will have kids before me.

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    BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11

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  • I am having a really rough and down day. And right now my husband is venting to me about work...and I am hardly even half-listening as I "bump." I wish he could realize that we have much bigger problems than what he is experiencing at work. :(

  • imageluckymrs.:

    I'm frustrated that I think this month is out for us.  Today was a big day for BD (after I finally figured out my O issues from last week) and had a solid "+" OPK yesterday and today. 

    DH had performance anxiety (only happens when we TTC, and not all the time), so I think our chances are blown for this month.  He had results at the end, but--and I warn TMI--he had to pull out to get things "going" again, and I don't think went back in time to leave his "results" in me much at all.

    :-(

    I felt horrible for him, but am so frustrated at the same time (of course I didn't let him know this latter part).  Very conflicted, and wanting a healthy sticky baby in my belly already!

    Hey now! You never know what those little swimmers are capable of! :)

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