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My FB IF post.....For those who wanted to read

Fraggle requested to read this (see IF Closet post below) and I thought it might help others as well. Like I said earlier, I felt like I was at a crossroads of becoming bitter that no one outside the IF community understood or making the conscious decision to educate those I could. It took me a long time to get there, and believe me, I still have my days where I'm bitter and angry at the world. But it does make me feel better knowing that I helped a few people where I could.

Also, I will DD this post in a few hours. I have a job where I'm required to keep my personal life from seeping into my professional job. Hope you ladies understand. I have also removed certain identifying details.

 

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I DD'd. Thank you ladies for your kind words. We can get through this together. :)

Struggled with IF from 2008-2011.
Surprise Pregnancy 02/11!

Re: My FB IF post.....For those who wanted to read

  • As much as this saddens me, and the video brought me to tears, I can 110% relate to what you and your DH are going through... and I admire the strength you have had to post this in such a public forum (both here and on FB).  Please know that you're not alone, and that someday we'll all find a way to turn our "guest rooms" into "baby's rooms." 

    Thank you for posting this!

    Mr. & Mrs. ~ 09.08.07

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  • Wow thanks so much for posting this.  It took a lot of courage to post this on FB.  Also I had never seen that video. It is quite amazing.  I myself am not ready to post my infertility on facebook but if/when I do I will certainly include the video.

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    Baby #2 FET Nov/Dec 2013

    12/13 Beta#1=BFP 349; 12/16 Beta#2=1,089. First ultrasound 12/26. DS#2 born 8/8/14
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  • Oh wow.  That is really amazing.  I give you so much credit for being brave enough to be so honest and open.  I hope your friends and family appreciate it and are kind and sensitive in their responses.  ((hugs))
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  • As someone told you before- I think this is really brave of you!! I wish I could feel as open about it. Hopefully one day my DH will as well. GL to you!!

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  • Excellent!  I applaud you for doing this.  I am very open about our struggles with infertility but it seems not many are.  I have had many friends message me on FB saying they were going through fertility tests & treatments but don't want others to know.  Why the shame?  I have PCOS & Endo but it's not because of something I did or didn't do.  Thank you so much for doing this!
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  • Thanks ladies! Its nice to let go of the shame and secrecy thats usually involved in IF.
    Struggled with IF from 2008-2011.
    Surprise Pregnancy 02/11!
  • Thank you for posting this.  Very well put.
    TTC since August 2009
    June/July 2011 - IVF #1 - Transfer cancelled due to OHSS
    23 perfect embryos. All 23 made it to freezing!
    September/October - FET #1 - October 12th - 2 Grade A embies
    October 20th - BFP??! EDD - July 1, 2012
    Beta #1 = 154, Beta #2 = 352 Beta #3 = 3,800
    U/S #2 - November 14th = 133 bpm! U/S #3 & 4 - November 30th and December 7th = 163 bpm! U/S#5 - January 30th - TEAM PINK!!!
    Baby Sweets born on her due date!
  • I wish I was as brave as you! Very well written.
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    This is so well written.  Beautiful, and heart-wrenching. 

    My DD took over two years to come along, so I remember my own pain while reading your words.  I feel it again as we've been working on #2 for almost as long.  I hope many people who read your words do in fact learn from them, and gain sensitivity.

    Wishing you a guest room-free home...

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    TTC #2 since Dec 2008 w/ PCOS
    ***P/SAIF Always Welcome***

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  • Thanks again ladies. I'm so humbled by all your comments.
    Struggled with IF from 2008-2011.
    Surprise Pregnancy 02/11!
  • I absolutely LOVE this.  Since I'm still in the "shame" stage I'm going to live vicariously through you.  LOL P.S.  December will be 2 years for me too.
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    I absolutely LOVE this.  Since I'm still in the "shame" stage I'm going to live vicariously through you.  LOL P.S.  December will be 2 years for me too.

    Life is too short to live with shame over something we have no control over. You can do this :)

    Struggled with IF from 2008-2011.
    Surprise Pregnancy 02/11!
  • Amaazing and well written.  I too share our infertility with many many people and yet still have not made it to the level of comfort to share on FB mainly because my H's shame with MFI and I don't know how to explain that we have trouble without somehow it coming up with the closer friends I've told in person.  I'm still afraid it's be brought up online and hurt DH's feelings.  But a big huge kudos to you.  I watch the IF video about once a month.

    TTC since July 2009. Dx MFI & LPD. 
    IUI#1&2&3 (2011 & 2012) BFN
    IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
    IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
    IVF w/ICSI Oct. 2, 2012 - 13R, 11M, 7F, 1 frozen blast 4BB grade - - - FET Nov 15, 2013
    BFP! Beta 1:104 @ 10dp6dt, Beta 2:178 @ 12dp6dt,  beta 3:366 @ 14dp6dt
    Saw heartbeat twice before missed M/C at 8w3d on 12/27/13, missing my little angel boy
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  • :( I missed it. I understand why you needed to take it down though. Any chance you could email or PM it to me?

    I gave you life, then you gave me mine.

    TTC February 2008 to October 2008 One year forced break due to OIF deployment #2
    Resumed TTC in October 2009 HSG, Hysteroscopy, S/A all clear
    Five total medicated cycles and IUI #1-3 = BFN and all while we were still "unexplained IF"
    25 August Lap revealed Endo, adhesions and blocked left tube
    September 2011: Femara + IUI #4 (IUI #1 post endo removal) =BFFN
    November: IVF #1: Stims started 11/16 ER 11/25 (7R, 5F) ET 11/30 Transferred 2 beautiful expanding blastocysts +HPT 12/6/11
    Beta #1 at 9dp5dt=153! Beta #2 at 16dp5dt= 4009!

    Ultrasound 12/30 showed one beautiful heartbeat! EDD 17 August, 2012

    Hazel Evelyn arrived 10 August, 2012!

    Surprise natural BFP March 2015. M/C at 5 weeks
    Another surprise natural BFP April 2015


  • I missed it too :( Any chance you could email or PM it to me as well?
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  • Sorry I missed it and you've already DD'd. 
    TTC #1 since October 2008. Dealing with MFI.
    IVF #1 w ICSI in July 2010 = BFN
    IVF #2.1 in Oct 2010 converted to IUI = BFN
    IVF #2.2 w ICSI in Dec 2010 = BFN
    Met with new RE in new city on 1/31/11.
    IVF #3 w ICSI in April 2011. HPT on 5/9 = BFP!
    Beta #1 on 5/10 (10dp5dt) = 99.4. Beta #2 on 5/12 = 284. First u/s on 5/26. = Fraternal TWINS!
    Twin boys born & lost on 8/16/11 at 18w1d due to PPROM & preterm labor.
    IVF #4.1 in Jan 2012 converted to IUI on 1/7/12 = BFN
    IVF #4.2 w ICSI in Feb 2012. Lupron on 2/10. Stims on 2/18. ER on 2/29- 7R,6F
    ET scheduled for 3/5/12- nothing to transfer :(
    Dh seeing new MFI uro & Dh starting meds- June 2012.
    IVF #5 in Dec 2012 = BFFN.
    IVF #6 planned for Spring 2013. Praying for our take home baby/ies.
    **P/SAIF and P/SAL always welcome!**

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  • I'm happy to PM it :)

     

    ETA: Check your inbox to those who requested it.

    Struggled with IF from 2008-2011.
    Surprise Pregnancy 02/11!
  • I'm sorry to say I also missed this.  Would you mind PMing it to me please?
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  • Done.
    Struggled with IF from 2008-2011.
    Surprise Pregnancy 02/11!
  • Thank you. 

    imageamy0610:
    Done.
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  • Thank you. 

    imageamy0610:
    Done.
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  • Me too?

    Thanks!

    TTC #1 since 4/09 w/ MFI
    IVF #1, 7/10: Cancelled due to dominant follicle; IVF #2, 9/10: c/p; FET #1, 11/10: c/p; IVF #3, 4/11: BFN; FET #2, 6/11: BFP! Beta #1 = 118 (11dp2dt), Beta #2 = 1975 (16dp2dt)
    DS born 2/17/12

    TTC #2
    IVF #4, 11/13: BFN; IVF #5, 3/14: BFP! Beta #1 = 59 (11dp2dt), Beta #2 = 406 (15dp2dt)
    EDD 12/19/14

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  • Can you send it to me too!
  • Can you PM me too? I was thinking about doing something like this as well and have been trying to work up the courage!
  • mm29mm29 member
    I was wondering if you could PM it to me as well?
    ::: Married June 2003:::
    TTC #1 since: Aug. 2008
    Me: 34, DOR, MTHFR-A1298C (heterozygous), decreased blood flow to uterus, Mild Endo
    DH: 38, Balanced translocation 5&10, unexplained MFI, normal SA and SCSA
    Tx History: IUI 1&2= BFN
    IVF# 1 W/ICSI= BFN
    IVF# 2: cancelled d/t no response
    IVF# 3= 1 egg retrieved=immature/not viable
    IVF# 4= c/p
    ***CCRM ODWU***
    Found DHs BT and Me-decreased blood flow to uterus
    Recommended DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture. Decided to cycle locally
    ***New RE***
    DE IVF# 1(cycle #6) w/pgd, (freeze all): 30R, 23M, 15F, slow/poor embryo development, 4 biopsied, 1 Normal "Norm"; DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture. 
    IVF# 6: (OE/DS) cancelled
    IVF# 7: (OE/DS) 1R, 1M, 1F, arrested day 5
    Plan-DE IVF# 2 (cycle #8): DE/DS in May 2015


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  • I am also wondering if you could please PM me on this as well? Thanks
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  • Sent to those of you who requested it. Sorry, I was offline most of yesterday :)
    Struggled with IF from 2008-2011.
    Surprise Pregnancy 02/11!
  • Sent Papps :)
    Struggled with IF from 2008-2011.
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