TTC After a Loss

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Remembering Evelyn and raising Bailey
Evelyn Born at 24wks 6days on May 22, 2010 due to pre-e Passed away May 25, 2010

BFP# 2 Delivered 6wks early due to preeclampsia
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Re: |*|* Nightly Confessions*|*|

  • This has been, bar none, the worst year of my and my family's life. I can't even tempt fate by saying what next, because each time I think it, something more horrific happens. And I am not just talking about my loss. That's just the tip of the iceburg and believe it or not, it's not the worst thing that has happened.

    Good things happen in waves too, right? That is all I can hope for at this point.

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  • I over stuffed myself with chicken fajitas at today's all day meeting. Now my tummy hurts. I see I missed all the drama as well.
    Hi, I'm Amanda :)

    Remembering Evelyn and raising Bailey
    Evelyn Born at 24wks 6days on May 22, 2010 due to pre-e Passed away May 25, 2010

    BFP# 2 Delivered 6wks early due to preeclampsia
    Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
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  • imagea&b=him&me:
    I over stuffed myself with chicken fajitas at today's all day meeting. Now my tummy hurts. I see I missed all the drama as well.

    I also stuffed myself w/ chicken fajitas at dinner. And 2 margaritas!Smile

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    DD #1 born 9/07 ** DD #2 born 7/11 ** Operation Take Back My Body has begun 10/11
    Upcoming Races
    Gobble Wobble 5K 11/24/11 - Abington, PA 29:40
    Superbowl 10K 02/05/12 - Allentown, PA 54:28 PR!!!!
    Broad Street 10 Mile Run 05/06/12 - Philadelphia, PA 1:30:44
    Rock and Roll Half Marathon 09/16/12 - Philadelphia, PA
    Philadelphia (Half?!?) Marathon 11/18/12 - Philadelphia, PA
  • I'm scared of the 5 tiny white pills (clomid) sitting on my desk.  I was all brave in asking my OB's partner for them.  Now I'm giving them Hmm  WTH is wrong with me?
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  • QUOTE: GummybearThis has been, bar none, the worst year of my and my family's life. I can't even tempt fate by saying what next, because each time I think it, something more horrific happens. And I am not just talking about my loss. That's just the tip of the iceburg and believe it or not, it's not the worst thing that has happened.Good things happen in waves too, right? That is all I can hope for at this point........... ((hugs)) they say when it rains it hails. I've found this to always be true. I pray and hope the clouds part and the sun shines through for you and your family.
    Hi, I'm Amanda :)

    Remembering Evelyn and raising Bailey
    Evelyn Born at 24wks 6days on May 22, 2010 due to pre-e Passed away May 25, 2010

    BFP# 2 Delivered 6wks early due to preeclampsia
    Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
    Photobucket

  • Not really a confession more of a hope..I hope AF comes tonight or tomorrow morning so I don't have to get the stupid beta drawnCrying
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  • My pregnant sil is driving me bat sh!t crazy...She is constantly rubbing her stomach, whining about every thing and constantly saying things like "Well I can't do that - I am pg...You wouldn't understand"...I swear if she does one more stupid fh thing I will b!tch slap her...
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  • I bought a box of wine at Target tonight.. its the equivalent of 4 bottles.. and it is delicious.. and I'm glad that its not transparent like a bottle so I can't see just how much of it I've consumed tonight!
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  • Ever since I got CHs I am torturing myself with phantom symptoms. I'm hungrier than normal-must be pregnant. My boobs kinda hurt-must be pregnant. I don't know why I'm getting my hopes up like that, we're not even supposed to TTC for 2 more cycles. I knew having sex without a condom one time would backfire, it's just going to mean I drive myself nuts for the next week, and I'm not gonna lie I'm totally testing at 10DPO.
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  • My 5 year nephew is coming over in a bit so we can watch him. I LOVE him sooo much but hope hes not here long because I want to bust out the Margaritas when I finish my homework! I had kind of a bad day of pregnancy announcements so I want to drown my sorrows.
  • I'm trying to decide how much to contribute to my flexible spending account and I really want to put a higher amount thinking I'll spend it "WHEN" I get pregnant.

    Last year at this time, I put in more money since I was pregnant and knew I would spend it. Most likely, it'll be a lot less this year since it might not happen at all. =(

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    BFP 6.1.10 - 6.10.10 Ectopic M/C @ 5wks
    BFP 10.26.10 - 10.29.10 CP
    BFP 1.30.11 - CVS 3.28.11 (Girl) - EDD 10.11.11 - Born 10.6.11
    BFP 12.18.12 - 12.20.12 CP
    BFP 3.18.13 - CVS 5.21.13 (Girl) - EDD 12.2.13 - Born 11.24.13
    BFP 6.10.14 - CVS 7.2.14 (Girl) - EDD 1.12.15 - Born sleeping 8.6.14 @ 17w5d
  • I just got drunk at applebee's tonight. My DH is a little ticked at me but I don't even care. I had to spend the morning babysitting a 2 year old that told me I would be the best mom ever and dinner with our friends  who are due a week before my due date. He is lucky I didn't have more drinkies and end up dancing on the bar without a top on.
  • imageJayandTay09:
    My pregnant sil is driving me bat sh!t crazy...She is constantly rubbing her stomach, whining about every thing and constantly saying things like "Well I can't do that - I am pg...You wouldn't understand"...I swear if she does one more stupid fh thing I will b!tch slap her...

    Mine just give birth last night.  SILs do not get better.

    My confession - I could care less that I have a new nephew since they are in my *** books (still waiting for one eeensy weensy text or FB message saying she's sorry about my loss...on my birthday...in May...esp. since she sent weekly check-ins when we were both KU.  I hope she had lots of tearing (BIL has a big head).  I also hope he is a healthy, happy baby who just doesn't feel the need to sleep.

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  • imageKristin&Adam:
    I bought a box of wine at Target tonight.. its the equivalent of 4 bottles.. and it is delicious.. and I'm glad that its not transparent like a bottle so I can't see just how much of it I've consumed tonight!

    Sh*t.  I forgot I have wine in the fridge, and now it's bedtime.  That would have made SIL in PP much more tolerable. 

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  • I had a lot to say on about 6 diff posts I read, but I am so late I didn't even bother to post anything at all....
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  • im drinking wine...a lot of it...(read above post about m/c expert) dh is rubbing my boobs (he's drinking too) and after 12 hours on my feet at work today ( and no temp spike at all saying ive o'd) i'm bumping and ignoring him...
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