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Maybe its the hormones....

Erin RNErin RN
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but I've really been feeling very angry about my losses today. I've cried and been upset, but I don't know if I've really been this angry before. I'm angy that I still worry about something going wrong because I know it can. I'm angry that I haven't been able to enjoy this pregnancy as much as my friend and cousin have. Both of them are pregnant for the first time, are due around the same time as me, and have had the easiest pregnancies. I get to hear about how easy its been and how great they feel. I'm so happy things are going well for them because I would never wish what we've been through on anyone, but I just have a hard time hearing it sometimes. I don't know if that makes any sense. Also now that I'm 31 wks, there are so many things that I originally wanted to do when I got pregnant but was too afraid to do because of the losses. Such as the pregnancy journal I really wanted to do. I had just started one the day before I started spotting with the first pregnancy. Then I almost made it through the first trimester of one with the second pregnancy. This pregnancy I bought one, but I was too affraid to start it. Now I really wish I had. Then, everyone keeps talking about when DH and I have another baby. How do I tell people that I don't know if we will because I'm too affraid to go through another loss again? I always wanted a big family, but I just don't see that in my future anymore. I guess I'm just having an "its not fair" moment. And it sucks that my husband isn't here right now. I never thought my sleeping could get worse, but I guess it can. Sorry to whine, but I just needed to vent. I don't really even understand what brought this on. Thanks for listening.
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  • MrsManning10MrsManning10
    I'm so sorry  (((hugs))).  I have a couple of friends that are pregnant for the first time, and I always envy them because it seems so much simpler.  That fear isn't constantly in the back of their minds.  I hope today gets better for you.  :-)
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    {{{HUGS}} sweetie
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  • hutch0830hutch0830 member
    I'm sorry you're having a bad day. (((hugs)))
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    ((HUGS))
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  • str8otastr8ota member

    I just want to hug you Left HugRight Hug

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  • cintimcintim

    Big Hugs.

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  • sevenonesixsevenonesix
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  • lovethebosoxlovethebosox member
    I'm sorry you're having a tough time.
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  • TravelinMamaTravelinMama member
    :::HUGE hugs::: sweetie. I think everything you're feeling is totally normal and I'm sorry that this whole beautiful process can't be easier.
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  • kazpinkazpin
    I am sorry you are having a bad day.  I understand what you are saying about having another one....That is what everyone keeps saying to me, but getting and STAYING pg with this one was hard and by the time I would want another I would be 39-40.  On top of that I just told my boss at 20 weeks. I want to tell other people but at the same time I dont because there is still time for problems and I am not sure what to say.... I understand your anger and wish there was something I could say to easily take it away for you..... ((Big hugs)).....
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  • jesmckennajesmckenna member
    ((hugs)) I'm sorry you're having such a rough day.  I know how you feel, though.  My sister got pregnant unexpectedly (due 3 mos after me) and has had a perfect pregnancy so far.  It's just not fair that what is supposed to be such an amazing experience comes with so much "baggage" for us.  I wish we could just enjoy every moment of it like some women can. 
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  • lisamarie_04lisamarie_04
    Sending big hugs your way.... I've also been feeling angry lately about many of things that you mentioned.  I feel like so much has been taken from people like us, but I try to shift my focus on the present and the healthy (as far as I know) baby that I'm carrying today.  It's tough.  I hope that you start to feel better soon and get to hold your baby in your harms in a couple of months.
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