I would NEVER hurt my baby. The thought has never crossed my mind. However, last night, I shouted at him out of frustration. I have never felt like a worse mother. I have been having some depression and I am calling my doctor tomorrow morning. I feel like I should be punished for all eternity for raising my voice at him.
Re: I'm scared..
I Never yelled at my LO but I have had a lot of help. DONT be hard on yourself. Best thing my therapist said to be was "be nice to yourself". It may be PPD which is treatable.Everyone on this board has issues with their LOs and come here to not be judged so If it happens again just jump on and say hello.
Remember this is not easy but at least you are making sure if something is wrong your treating it.......not ignoring it. Good MOM.....not a bad one!!