Community› The Bump Message Boards› Postpartum Depression
Postpartum Depression
New Discussion

New to this board...PPD?

ErinAnthonyErinAnthony
in Postpartum Depression

Hi ladies.  My DS was born July 31st at 35 weeks, 3 days.  He finally got home from the NICU on Friday night.  Him being a preemie and spending time at the hospital took a little toll.  Also, the same day DS was born, my best friend was killed in an accident.  Last, I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer in March, and now have treatment coming up in the next few weeks.  With treatment I will have to be away from DS for almost a week and half.

So...I of course couldn't wait to be a mommy, but now that he is home, it is so real.  I feel super overwhelmed with everything and I'm afraid I'm not bonding with my son.  I have expressed this all to my husband, who reassures me I'm doing great and that I'm going through a lot right now.  I have also spoke with my mom, my doctor and a nurse.  It seems that everyone agrees it isn't PPD, just me dealing with a lot.  I'm just scared these feelings aren't going to ever pass.  I want to be really excited about DS, not overwhelmed.  And I want to grieve for my friend properly...and get past this cancer.

Should I talk to my doctor again about this possibly being PPD...or just take it one day at a time?  The nurse I spoke with said if I start to feel like I'm spiraling, call the doctor.  Sorry for the long post...it makes me feel better to just share.  Thanks ladies.

Report Reply to Post

Re: New to this board...PPD?

  • rodiesmumrodiesmum member

    i dunno what to say an just lurking in gthis board whenever i feel too overwhelmd and frustrated.just  wnted to say amsorry ur going through these. hang on

     

    1ht


    i love you, my little mooncake mahal kita
     
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker


    imageimageimage
    Report Reply
  • Loading the player...
  • MamaPoshMamaPosh
    Most moms are overwhelmed when baby first comes home, don't worry he's only one week according to your ticker, things will get better.  If you were feeding baby chocolate milk you'd be doing fine with the emotions you're dealing with right now, pat yourself on the back mama and don't be afraid to ask for a break you've just given birth! 
    Photobucket
    Daisypath Happy Birthday tickers
    Report Reply
  • Kentuckychick_8201Kentuckychick_8201
    My daughter is 21 months old but I had really bad PPD after she was born.  At the point your at and the way your describing it sounds just like your overwhelmed and you have baby blues.  However if it continues and you keep feeling overwhelmed definitely dono't be afraid to talk to your doctor!  Especially if things get worse.
    Report Reply
  • jaime5121jaime5121

    I'm sorry for everything you are going through, but that is probably the last thing you want to hear right now.  Feel free to cry, and scream and throw a thing or two if you want to - sounds like you've earned it!  Sounds like you probably could use a little bit of a break to - don't be afraid to ask for help either.  I know your son is so new, but you also need to take care of you. 

    This isn't anywhere near what you are going through with your cancer, but I was hospitalized twice after my son was born.  I litterally couldn't take care of him.  Granted, he was in the hospital with me - I was stubborn, and refused to be admitted without him.  But, someone had to be with me at all times to take care of him because the hospital staff was not allowed to.  YOU NEED HELP!  It definitely taught me that it is okay to ask for help.  It really scared my DH when I told him to call his Mom in FL and ask her to fly up to NC and help out.  She and I DON'T get along.  BUT, I needed the help. 

    But, to answer your question, it doesn't sound like PPD to me.  I'm no DR.  It sounds like you are dealing with more than anyone should have to deal with.  Talking to a therapist though might not be a bad idea.  That way, you already have a way in if it does develop into PPD.  Just a thought.  GL

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    Report Reply
This discussion has been closed.
Choose Another Board
Search Boards
"
"