I kind of feel guilty.
The past few days have gone by so quickly- From Tuedsay until now I have experienced every fathomable emotion. Though my sadness is in little pockets scattered here and there. Mostly I feel like somebody transplanted me back into my body 2 and a half months ago.
I went today for a tattoo with DH. We both got beetles, b/c that was the name we were using for LO.
Should I feel guilty for having drinks and wine last night with friends? For having fun and smiling and laughing? Because honestly I don't know what else to do. Sadness and woe is just not a comfortable place for me. I miss the little life I was helping grow, and I wish that there wasn't a problem that stopped their tiny heart. I wanted to be this persons mother...but that wasn't meant to be. Not now...so I look forward to the future with hope and happiness. Stopping to cry every once and a while when a pocket of sadness finds me. Thats just where I am....but then I feel guilty when I think how different my life was just a week ago.
Does anyone else get sad from how fast they've been able to resume a somewhat normal pre-preggo life?