I go to this website almost everyday that tracks how many days along I would have been and tell me how big the baby would be and all that goodness.... Today I would be 32 weeks and 1 day! My heart hurts every time I see how many days I would of had left! Thinking about how much I wish I could still be PG and only have 55 left before I could hold my baby! But I cant cause Aeron is gone! Aeron wanted to be in heaven instead of being here! Aeron is gone and all I have is a empty tummy and broken heart! I know Aeron is watching over me and my FI! Aeron gave me 3 of the greatest weeks of my life! Being a mother has changed my life made me a better person made me want to do more with my life to make Aeron happy! Sitting here crying for Aeron hurts but Aeron brought my FI and I so much closer then we have ever been and for that I am so greatful! I have been trying to see the silver linning in the clouds but somedays it wont stop raining long enough to see it!