I am getting so tired of breastfeeding and I'm not sure what to do. I've made it to 12 weeks on Monday. I'm tired of ....
-Growth spurts! It seems like he's going through one every other week! I feel like I'm going to have a mental breakdown every time we go through this. Every time he does, I'm lucky if I get a 30-min window to go pee and get something to eat.
-Having ginormous boobs.
-His eating every 2 hours. It seems he's never going to space out his feedings. I'm so tired of having to rush around getting my errands done because I only have an hour window that he's not attached to my boob.
-Having my supply dip every time I try to diet or exercise.
-These extra 10 pounds that won't go away.
-Being looked at like I'm a freak show when I'm feeding him (and I'm not talking about strangers here)
-Having people constantly tell me he's hungry and I just need to give him some formula and rice cereal - my grandma told me this when he was a week old and her and my mom will not get it through their thick heads that I'm not giving my LO rice cereal yet and formula is not the magic answer I need.
-Having no support to breastfeed whatsoever. Everyone around me formula fed and I can tell even my DH is weirded out by it.
I'm just so tired of it all. I go back to work in two weeks and I'm not sure what I'm going to do. It's just all getting to be too much, but I'm trying to do what's best for my LO - just not sure what that is yet. I'm not even sure why I'm posting this - maybe I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening!