I have been away from this board for a while but I had an ectopic pregnancy at the end of April this year and as a result lost one of my tubes. In the aftermath, I had to pull myself together quickly to finish a masters degree and internship. I thought I was doing ok until recently...
Everyone around me is pregnant or just had a child. I have a gorgeous two year old who I am grateful for every day but every time I hear of a new pregnancy lately, I am just overcome with sadness. I am so happy for those around who are pregnant but so devastated over my own loss. Compounding these feelings are the 4 baby showers I have been invited to this month as well as a baptism. It is hard to slap a smile on my face and act like all is normal when I am so heartbroken.
When did you start to feel "normal" again?
Re: When Did You Start to Feel "Normal" Again?
((hugs)) I do not know about when you feel normal again, but I can imagine 4 baby showers in one month isn't helping. Don't pressure yourself to go to them all if it's too difficult. I went to walmart today and saw a onsie that said "born in 2010" and it was ugly quite honestly, but I cried when I saw it.
Hopefully with time things will get easier and easier.
Honestly, I'm not sure you ever do. It's going to be a new kind of normal, now. You know? You can't go back to how you were before, and that's part of the mourning that goes into all of this. It really sucks.
I am so sorry for your loss.
I agree that we are forever changed and don't go back to "normal" but instead have a new normal. My loss was almost six months ago and 99% of the time I'm ok, but there are definitely times that things still get overwhelming.
4 baby showers would be tough on anyone, don't be to hard on yourself.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I started seeing a grief counselor about 2 weeks afterwards, and it took about 2 months post loss to feel "normal" again.
However, it's a new normal. A part of me has a sadness and bitterness I never had before. I still cry and/or tear up everyday. But, the grief doesn't consume me like it did before.
BFP #3 via cancelled IUI ~ C (2lb 3oz; HELLP) 5/16/11
BFP #4 via the natural (free!) way ~ E (8lb 11oz) 9/13/12