Hi Everyone,
Wanted to introduce myself. Have been trolling the site for many months but never posted. DH and I got married 1-11-09 and have been TTC for about 9 months. He has major ED issues and getting the timing right has been almost impossible. I am 39, as is he, so we made the jump to going to a RE to maximize the time we have left to try. No identified issues on my part so far, other than age. Had first appt on 7/27. Husband is trying to get a specimen for a semen analysis (not easy when you have ED and you have to have a set appointment time for donation) and I am starting clomid today (we are being "aggressive" with this). If the semen analysis is okay, we have an appt on 8/9 for usg and possibly HCG followed the next day by our first IUI attempt (if DH can do the deed). I did not realize the emotional toll taking this kind of leap would have on me. I am excited to feel like we are actually making progess towards our goal of TTC but everytime I think about the possible outcomes, I just tear up. I want to be okay if none of this works, so I think I am experiencing some kind of grief way to far in advance when I ponder the coming months. I know I need to change my mindset to more optimism and I decided that posting here might help. I am not really wanting to share our journey just yet with parents, and have only told my brother and one close friend. There is so much more to the story of how we came to chose going to a fertility specialist but I guess this is enough for now. Look forward to learning how to navigate this very different world and sharing my story as it develops.
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I hope everything progresses swiftly & well
for you & your husband! Stay positive.
Jamie.
"5.01.09"
Good luck to you! I agree it is hard not to get emotional about all of this. It is really an "all in" endeavour. We just started up with an RE last week. Nonetheless, DH and I have wonderful life and will live happily ever after no matter what the outcome. I think your signature note is a good place to start: you just have to wait and see what God (or whatever higher power guides you) has in store. It is a relief to put part of it in God's hands and yet also a relief to feel like you are taking control by going to the RE. The boards have been a great source of support and useful information for me and I hope for you too! Welcome! -Pix