Thank you all for your wisdom and support when I was agonizing over the whole preschool/no preschool dilemma. Hearing from all of you helped me think through the whole thing more clearly and we finally made a decision...our girl is starting preschool on Monday!
I realized that it wasn't so much that I wasn't sure about the program, but more that I was afraid of letting go. And that isn't going to get any easier as time goes by so it might as well start happening now. Just because I'm not quite ready doesn't mean I should hold her back. She wants to go to school, wants to play with other kids, and craves the independence preschool will bring her. And if it turns out it isn't the right place for her, we'll try something else until we get it right.
I also think that I will be a much better parent when she starts preschool. Since naps no longer exist in our house, I have found myself resentful about not getting ANY time to myself during the day. This makes me short tempered, and I haven't been the mom I want to be. We are both going to get a break, and we'll be better for each other as a result.
The financial issue seems to have worked itself out as well. I am going to be working part time (from home) for a cousin who runs an internet-based business. No I won't be using my degrees, my license or even my brain, but the pay is fantastic and the work is easy and will not intrude on my family life. And if I decide to take full advantage of the opportunity, it could end up being a brand new career once L is in school full time.
Just wanted to thank you for the time you gave me and to let you know it helped.
Now if you could just tell me how to keep myself together when I drop off my baby for the very first time...sniff.
Re: Update re: My preschool dilemma (LONG)
Glad you are happy with your decision! She (and you) will be so happy!
Good luck on Monday! Its ok to cry, just try not to do it in front of her ;-)
Ditto this. It's so hard all around. While the boys have been in school since before summer, I was very hesitant to put S into a different one this summer. It was awkward and uneasy, but he has come to like it. I hope Monday goes ok for you and she will enjoy it!!
I'm so glad it worked out - I know it will be hard. I may just cry along with you.
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And super excited about the p/t job - can't wait to hear more about it! I *SO* wish something like that would happen in the sweetiep household - I could use the extra funds.