I miscarried today at 7 weeks. However, I have been in miscarriage limbo since last Wednesday and I can honestly say this has been one of the worst weeks of my life.
I really only had symptoms for like a week (slight nausea, hot flashes and insomnia). Took a HPT on 7/2 and it was positive. The doctor confirmed on the 7/7. I spotted from 7/5 til 7/10 and then it stopped. My doctor said it was old blood.
Then, like an idiot, I went and got a pedicure last wednesday and used a vibrating chair. Started spotting that night and never stopped. It was heavy that Thursday but only brown blood. I called my doctor who said she was more concerned about the spotting from 7/5 til 7/10. That pissed me off as I told her about it at the time.
Well, they do a blood test last Friday. I should be 6 weeks but HCG onlh 1578. They do ultrasound and sack but no baby. Tell me I could be earlier than I think and that the baby could be viable or I will miscarry. I read all these posts where people were bleeding and HCG is low and baby is ok so I had hope. I have an ob-gyn appointment set up for 8/2 but lost the baby today.
So many thoughts. I know the baby probably stopped developing a whiile ago but part of me thinks its my carelessness in using that chair. I also had a UTI when I first found out I was pregnant and took 5 days of pregnancy safe anti-biotics. I would never forgive myself if it died because of my carelessness.
I am joining weight watchers today cause I am on the plumpish side and want to be healthy for another baby. I just feel so sorry for this little being who will never know life or us and I will never know them. Sorry, I will get over it.
The worst part is I keep on thinking that maybe its jsut a blood clot and Im still pregannt. Funny how hope is so slow to fade away.
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I'm so sorry. I truly doubt that either the vibrations or the UTI had anything to do with this. Please don't blame yourself.
Best wishes to you.
My doctor also assured me the chair did nothing. But then why did I start spotting that day? I will wonder about this for the rest of my life.
Im also 33 and dont have years left to try. For years, I wasnt interested and now it feels like time is just going by. Now I have to wait for my period and then try again. Meanwhile, my eggs are getting older. I almost think that maybe my eggs aren't vaible anymore and this will be my one and only time been pregnant.
Sorry, this is still fresh.
So sorry for your loss..Don't beat yourself up ypu did NOTHING wrong!
Big hugs!
I truly think it was probably just a bad, horrible coincendence. I didn't even know I wasn't supposed to use the vibrating chair until I was about 30 weeks with J, when a manicurist told me not to. He was born a preemie, but I don't correlate the two. Please don't feel guilty. It's very easy to try and find something to blame, but you did nothing wrong. My mother had me at 33, after 2 losses, and I was her last chance at a healthy pregnancy. 33 is still pretty young. Anyway, I just wanted to tell you my thoughts and prayers are with you.