Starting to get very nervous...

SallyAnneS · July 2010

about my lap tomorrow morning. I have been acting like it is no big deal IRL. Talking about all the crappy foods I am going to eat and how I will be dieing to go for a run and to the gym. Reality is that I know this isn't the case. I just hope the pain isn't to bad and doesn't last for to long. I am terrified of surgery. Crying Getting strapped down to the bed, them not being able to find a vein, waking up mid-way through, being in pain afterwards.

Even more so I am afaid of the emotional side of all this. What if I have endo? More importantly what am I going to do if I don't! I won't have any more answers then I do right now, I will have wasted time and had surgery for no reason. I don't know how I am going to cope. How do you heal if your heart is breaking?

I am just scared of the unknown. (thanks for listening)

mainesmichelle · July 2010

I have no advice, but wanted to wish you luck!! I am sure everything will turn out great.

Edwina.McDunnough · July 2010

I'm hoping everything goes as well as it can, and that you have some answers really soon. Lots of hugs to you!!

carlatron · July 2010

Hi there.

I had my lap on June 16th. I had all the same fears that you have. The surgery itself was nothing. Coming out of it in recovery wasn't just a little surreal for me. The only pain I really felt was thinking I had to pee, because of the catheter (that was inserted after I was under, and taken out before I woke up). I asked for pain meds, and it went away. Easy peasy.

As far as the recovery goes, it's not awful. You'll definitely want to take it easy for about a week. I don't recommend going back to work before then. Otherwise, I felt great.

Hugs, and good luck to you.

PurplePanda83 · July 2010

I have definately been there. You will be okay. It is so hard walking that line of wanting something found so you have answers and not wanting something found because you don't want to have more issues. It is all normal anxiety. You will do great! Just take your pain meds, relax afterward, and know that you have a whole board full of women who have been there and that everything you're feeling is normal. ((HUGS)) GL!!!

SallyAnneS · July 2010

Thanks ladies. I feel silly to have these fears, I feel like I am to "grown up" to be scared. But I am. Thanks for the encouragement.

hmmm... I'm not having a catheter. I am afraid I am going to have stage fright when they tell me I have to pee before I can leave. :S I am also going to be on CD 2 tomorrow. So I hope they understand I need to keep my underwear on!

Again thank you! I will post when I get home from the hospital tomorrow. Or at least at some point tomorrow afternoon, evening to let you know how everything went.

Yellow_Daisy · July 2010

Good Luck! I hope everything goes smoothly and that you get good news.

Dragonfly1226 · July 2010

Any kind of surgery is scary. When I had my lap, I was really scared. (I think I was crying when I had to say goodbye to dh.) But the good news is that it really wasn't that bad at all. I took the pain medication that they gave me and rested a lot afterwards, but even the pain afterwards wasn't bad.

I know the thought of them finding endo is scary, but the good thing is that if they do find it then they can clean it out and you'll have a better change of getting your BFP

Good luck hon!