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Feeling a little lost

acast187acast187 member
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I dont know where to start.... I found out I was PG the 16th of Jan. and my heart raced I dont think I could have been happier but it was short lived when I started spotting and on the 4th of February I lost my baby. It has been almost 6 months but just now I have been feeling really low. Last week my AF was off and it was really light and thought that I maybe PG again I waited a week to be on the safe side but when only one line came up I felt my heart break again! This past week I have be going to be early in the morning and sleeping almost all day! Last night I went to bed around 6am and woke up at 5pm! I have been diagnosed with depression before when I was in high school after my parents got divorced. And I have been trying to remember the feelings I had and I pretty much feel the same. I dont know what to do. The only person the knows about me feeling so low is my FI and I only feel normal when am around him. Am sorry if my post offends anyone I just wanted some help in understand all of this.
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Re: Feeling a little lost

  • Sunrise6Sunrise6 member

    I am very sorry for your loss.  I have never had a loss so I can't say that I know how you feel.  My thoughts go out to you and your FI.  Sad  I think I'd be feeling just the way you are now if I were in your position.  

    I, too, had depression before (stemming from family issues as well) and had those same feelings as you are having now.  I would only want to sleep and when I was around anyone I would try to be somewhat happy, but I was mostly unsuccessful at that.  When I felt that way I went to my regular Dr. and told him what was going on and went on Lexapro for about a year until I felt I had things completely under control.  It helped immensely.  I was also stressed out about a lot of things, so when I got through that I decided I'd try to go off the medication.  I have PPD now and am currently on Zoloft, which has also helped immensely.  

    It seems that since you have a history of depression and that you have gone through the tragic loss of your baby, that it would be a good idea to talk with your Dr. about starting some medication and maybe also talking with a therapist.  I haven't had luck with therapy before, so I'm no help there, but I am so thankful that there are medications out there that make me feel normal again.  Miscarrying is such a hard thing to go through, I can only imagine, and I would be devastated as well.  Maybe talking to someone about your loss will help you find some closure, and medication will help you get back on your feet.  I hope you start to feel better soon and that you are able to get some medicine or therapy to help you.  My heart goes out to you and I wish I could give you a big hug and a shoulder to cry on.  You are more than welcome to PM me if you just want to vent or want someone to listen - I've never been in your position but I want you to know that I'm here for you, even though we're complete strangers.  Please talk to your Dr.

    Your baby will always have a piece of your heart, as he or she has heard your heart from within you.  Your baby will never be forgotten!

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  • jaime5121jaime5121
    Why would your post offend anyone?  Never feel ashamed to post on here, that is what we are here for!  I had an ectopic pregnancy which ended in emergency surgery when I was just about 7 weeks pregnant.  I thought I had dealt with it fine.  Little did I know.  I ended up quitting my job and moving me and my husband several states away.  I said it was to be closer to family - in retrospect, I was running away.  Running away from memories of what could and should have been.  About a year after my emergency surgery, my husband and I hit an all time low.  We nearly got divorced.  Luckily, we ended up seeing a therapist.  He made me see that I had never dealt with my loss.  DH and I are doing great now, and we have a healthy and happy 1 year old.  Things can get better for you, you just need to reach out to someone.  Please, reach out to someone who can help you.  You can always talk to us on here, but we can only do so much.  GL
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