I stepped on the scale and saw an UNGODLY number. I think my true weight gain is done, but I'm now retaining A LOT of fluid--my toes look like cocktail weenies, and my ankles like softballs. Then, of course, they took my BP as I'm trying to repress tears, and unsurprisingly it was up to 140/90--more than 20 points higher than my typical reading.
The doc came in (I had composed myself thanks to DH) and asked how I was and I cried. AGAIN. She hit the emergency button when she realized the room had no tissues, ha, and someone ran them over. I was a MESS. I just feel giant and uncomfortable. I have a very large cyst on my right ovary and now that baby is out of room, I get the worst cramping down there--it really hurts.
I did have an internal today, hoping for progress, and I am 50% effaced and 1+ cm dilated, so things are moving in the right direction. I know better than to read too much into it, but I'm glad to know my body is doing something, you know?
Her last day on call is tomorrow, and then she's on vacation. I'm still hoping I magically have this baby tomorrow only because I love my doc, but I know things will be fine no matter what. I want my baby to cook as long as it needs, but I'm hoping it's feeling as done as I am and will make an appearance soon.
Re: I cried at my 39 week appointment today.
I can totally relate. I feel like a sitting duck right now. I am uncomfortable and I can't imagine how a large cyst would feel on top of having a LO growing big!
Like you said- at least your body is doing something...that is a good sign.
DS2 - Oct 2010 (my VBAC baby!)
Mother Nature designed it to be rough at the end so you will do anything to get that baby out.
Your day is near, good luck!
I had tears today at my appointment too. I've stopped gaining weight a few weeks ago but I did reach 50 lbs before that happened.
My BP was the same as yours because I was all worked up but they talked to me for awhile and then it went back down.
We'll have babies soon, one way or the other. My MW said once women reach their I'm done, I can't sleep, I'm so miserable I'll do anything to get this baby out, they typically have the baby a week later.
Tears are ok. I had a lot of them in those last few weeks. My MW made me a copy of her notes from Lily's labor and birth and it included the few days leading up until my water broke. I think it was 3 days before that it said something like, "pink cried a lot at this apt." LOL The next day (I was past 42 weeks at that point, so I saw my MW daily) she said that I was upbeat and feeling strong. Each day is a new one.
You can do this Mama. Look how far you have come. Everything from now till the baby is arrives is short time- remind yourself of that when you feel like you will be pregnant forever.