i just hate it. i should be happy for them when i see their announcement about another pregnancy etc... but my initial thought is like a knife through my heart or punch in my stomach and then i honestly feel physically sick.
i feel so selfish for feeling this way but i can't help it.
so i really hate how my losses has affected my feelings towards others bfps. there's no reason i shouldn't be happy for them but i can barely muster a congrats. i feel so awful b/c that's not who i am. ugh.
8.15.07 NATHAN
6.13.09 - 6.14.09 WYATT born 32w3d Gone too soon, RIP.
4.21.10 BFP - missed m/c - D&C on 5.27.10.
1.31.11 BFP - 1st cycle IUI + Follistim + Trigger (2 mature follies)Beta 1 @ 13dpiui: 199 Beta 2 @ 15dpiui: 527
10.7.11 ELIANA(Ellie)ROSE (39w3d)Team Green turned Team Pink - VBAC & ALL NATURAL 6lbs 11oz 19 &1/2in
Re: i hate how my losses has affected my reactions to friends bfps...
I promise, you are not alone. I'm sorry you're feeling down. I think it's another lovely "side effect" of pregnancy loss.
I hope you have a better day.
i know, that's how i feel too and i feel so terrible about feeling that way.
I'm in the 2ww so hearing bfp announcements is not making this any easier. i could be physically sick right now. ugh.
I agree you are not alone. I am truly happy for those who are pg, but inside there is a sense of sadness and question "will that ever be me?" I am sorry, but I relate and feel the same way. HUGS
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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I have to agree dont feel bad ...you are not alone.
I wish you the best!