Postpartum Depression

Tell me about your PPD

If you were not treated for anxiety or depression before/during your pregnancy, what made you feel that you might have PPD after giving birth?

How long after having your child did you become diagnosed?

Do you think you have PPD, but you were not diagnosed?

 

I just don't know what I'm feeling sometimes....But I know I feel confused.

Talk to me..Please.

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Re: Tell me about your PPD

  • srbmvpsrbmvp member

    I should have known the second DS was born that I had PPD and PPA, I have a history of depression. I immediately felt sick to my stomach, could not eat, very anxious, could not sleep, trouble feeling connected to DS, trouble feeling any sort of confidence in being a parent.... basically I was a mess.

    If you think you might be having trouble, seek help now. I waited way too long, and I'm just now starting to address this stuff. I wish I had acted a lot sooner, life would be a lot more enjoyable now if I had.

    GL!

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  • I did have a history of anxiety, but I had not been treated for it before. I also have OCD, so that kind of adds to things, but that aside. I was started on 25mg of Zoloft about 30 seconds after I pushed Drew out due to my anxiety.

    I never had PPD with my first 2, but I had it with #3. It started off with feeling overwhelmed and weepy. Then came the not sleeping. And the anger. Then the resentment. Then the "If I don't get out of here right this second I am going to freak out" feelings. I honest to god think that if I wasn't so scared of death (one of my OCD things) that I may have done something rash on my really dark nights.

    On one of my night shifts I lost it. I yelled at Drew to STFU (he has a milk allergy and AR and had colic so he cried, a lot) my husband head Drew crying (and I assume me yelling) and came out. Drew and I were both on the floor in a fit of hysterics.

    The next day we called my OB who upped me to 50mg and put in a psych consult. It's been 5 months and I am working with a therapist for weekly meetings (talking about CBT) and I met monthly with a psychiatrist to deal with my meds.

    I'm still not feeling great. I just had another med change on Friday and we added some more to help combat my nightly panic attacks.

     Be honest with your husband, SO, partner. Let him know how you're feeling. And talk to you doctor. Your baby needs you, and you need you. Seeking help is the first step - :)

    If you ever need someone to talk to, PM me and i'll give you my email. Talking to someone who knows what you're going through (and won;t judge you for the crazy thoughts you're having!) helps!

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  • I was only diagnosed a week ago and I don't think my meds have kicked in yet. I feel... Nervousish, like my heart is skipping beats sometimes. I don't feel myself. I have extreme guilt over things I know to be silly. I have a general feeling of 'suckiness'. I am in a constant state of feeling like a bad mom, wife, boss. Eating habits changed, spending habits changed, sleeping habits changed (and not how you would think with a newborn). Very easily irritated, can't handle the sound of my baby crying. I have to put him in his crib and walk away or pass him to my husband daily, sometimes more than that. I hope the meds kick in soon so I feel better and I hope you seek help if you feel you need it.
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  • I just have to say you ladies are so brave for addressing this and attacking it head on. It can not be easy to admit all you are feeling as ask for help. I have the utmost respect for you and pray everything gets better for you.
  • I didn't feel like myself.  I had a million thoughts swirling through my head and I was confused too.  It's really hard to explain looking back.  I just wasn't myself, I wasn't happy, I had some scary thoughts here and there.  I thought I was a horrible mother, etc.

    If you think you may be going through PPD make a call to your doctor, hormones are insane after you have a baby, it's not your fault! 
  • If you think you have PPD, you probably do.

    Definitely talk to someone.

    I wish I would have gotten help sooner. BUT at the same time I can't dwell on regrets. I AM getting better which is the main thing.

    GL to you.

     

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  • I did not have a history of depression before or during pregnancy.  I did have a bit of the baby blues right after LO was born, but that went away quickly.  I was fine for several months.  It was when I weaned LO that my PPD hit.  I had no idea what was going on.  I would pick fights with DH, I was miserable.  I felt like my life was spinning out of control.  I would cry all the time.  The only time I was happy was when I was with LO. 

    Like PP said, if you think you have PPD, you probably do.  I had the hardest time admitting it to myself.  But, when I did and asked for help, I immediately felt better.   Just saying it out loud and asking for help.  Knowing that the sun would shine again. 

    I am currently weaning from my meds, and felling pretty darn good.  Life gets much better!  GL

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  • I've been diagnosed with PPA...Basically I just was not myself AT ALL after L was born.  I was always sick-to-my-stomach nervous and started having mini-panic attacks.  I couldn't sllep or eat at all.  I was irritable with my DH and felt completely overwhelmed.  I would think about what if's alll the time...What if he's autistic?  What if he gets hurt?  Crazy thoughts just zoomed through my head all the time.  I'm now doing meds and talk therapy.  It's been over 5 months of that and I'm in a much better place, but it's still a struggle.  Don't wait...talk to your doctor!
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