My BFing days are numbered. Addy is showing less interest - and only seems to want to in the middle of the night. She might nurse for a minute of so before bed....but I don't think she is getting anything. She is waking up hungry and scarfing down a 4 oz bottle after she goes down for the night.
My pump sessions are down to twice a day - of which I am lucky to get 4 oz. I am thinking of going to once a day but I know I will only get 1 to 3 oz in a session. She takes 4-5 oz bottles. So....my internal struggle....do I just drop all BFing and pumping sessions - and just stick with the AM feeding with Addy?
I have been beating myself up over this for the past month. I want to make it to one year so bad...and it is only SIX weeks away -- but I am seriously driving myself batty!
What to do....what to do....I don't know! :-(
Re: pumping - when to give up?
Rae with everything you have been through you really need to give yourself a huge pat on the back! I say give up pumping at work since it's only giving you more stress. Enjoy when she wants to nurse and give your body a break. I think you've done an amazing job! Stop driving yourself crazy and enjoy your LO!
Much Love~
Rae- I could've written this myself. I pump only half of what DS needs when I am gone. I struggle so much with seeing our freezer stash dwindle down. I think I've decided to just keep pumping until the stash is entirely gone and then I will nurse him when I am with him and start formula. I wanted to make it to a year also, but I know when he starts DC in October it will def be over. GL to you! I know how you are feeling!
You have done an awesome job and giving up pumping a little earlier than you planned won't change that! What are you planning on transitioning Addy to at a year? The pedi reminded me today that turning a year old doesn't magically make cow's milk ok. He told me that it's ok to start giving DD whole milk (I wanted to BF for a year, maybe longer, but because of my pre-term labor with DD the doc wants me to start weaning).
Don't beat yourself up over six weeks! Addy's gotten lots of great BM!