that I have postpartum depression.
I feel guilty about even saying I have PPD, so seeking treatment is hard for me. But finally called my Dr about it and will be starting some medication this week.
I guess I'm just seeking some support.
I never experienced this after having DD, so this is all new and scary for me. I am just so tired of feeling like a failure every single day. My relationship with DF is suffering because of it, and the guilt of not being able to be happy even for my kids' sake is eating me up.
ETA: All this depression is stemming from financial troubles, stress over pumping while I'm at school every night, fear of losing supply, relationship trouble (DF doesn't help very much), LO is extrememly fussy, has AR, and doesn't nap more than once a day.
Re: Finally admitting...
when i gave birth to our 1st child, I recall having PPD, but its a mild depression. Me thinking always that I'm useless....that I'm fat.... I dont even want to get near to my son.... the pain that I felt because of my operation....Even my husband was having a hard time on me because I'm always mad. worrying about our finances, even i should not worry about it.
Its the worst experience in my life. Now that I having my second child hope that I wont experience that AGAIN.
They always say that the first step is admitting so I'm glad you went to get help. Try not to feel guilty. I know, easier said then done. You need to be proud of yourself for getting the help you deserve. It's the best for you and you kiddos.
Good luck and I hope the meds help you. Try sitting down with your DF and having a long talk with him about what you are going through and how you need help and support.