Today was one of the most taxing days I've had in a while.
So earlier I posted about having light brown spotting last night and light pink spotting this morning along with minor cramps. The nurse I spoke to this morning said it was normal and to call back if it got worse or if there was red blood.
Two hours later I used the restroom and (TMI) there was red blood and plenty of it every time I wiped along with some tiny clots. I also had regular cramping for several hours that felt like I was well into a normal AF.
I called the Dr.'s office in tears (thanks, hormones) and they got me in an hour later at the hospital. After waiting almost an hour, the midwife finally saw me. She said my cervix was closed and there was only a bit of old blood, but that the ultrasound indicated the fetus had stopped growing a week ago and that she didn't see any cardiovascular activity. She was very nice and gave me instructions on what to expect with a natural miscarriage, lots of bleeding and pain for a little while, and then sent me downstairs for a final ultrasound in radiology just to be sure.
I'm a weeping mess and go down to radiology. The ultrasound tech takes her time and snaps lots of pictures for the radiology Dr. Then she comes to one spot, I believe where the uterus was, and pauses. She looks at the ultrasound and pauses again. Tells me to hold my breath, more pausing. After a while, she finishes up and tells me to get dressed.
A few minutes later she comes in, apologizes, and says to please get undressed again because the Dr. wants to take some shots. He comes in and they are both murmuring things quietly to each other. She goes to the spot she'd paused at before and tells me to hold my breath again. They stare some more and then he points to the screen and nods almost in a positive way with his eyebrows raised as if to say, "wow, yeah, there it is." Then he leaves without a word and she says she can't tell me anything but that he is going to call my midwife and that I would probably be called back up to the midwife's office. She kept saying, "I'm sure after he talks to her she'll call you back up to her office if she's still here." I ask her how my ovaries and everything look and she says they look fine. At this point I'm still expecting the worst but now I'm starting to wonder if they'd found a heartbeat.
I get dressed and then the tech comes in to tell me that my midwife has ordered blood tests and to go to the lab. I get to the lab and the midwife arrives telling me that they're going to take betas and see if there are any Rh issues that I might need a shot for (suggesting to me that there was actually something worth saving?). She said I'd have a second round of blood tests on Friday for comparison and then when I saw her for my followup in 4 weeks I'd take a blood pregnancy test?
I'm still absorbing all of this but catch her before she leaves and tell her that radiology didn't tell me what they'd found. She just says, "the same thing I did, they found it to be around 6w3d." She wouldn't say anything else, I guess to avoid getting my hopes up. She says to call her if I have any questions and leaves.
After 3.5 hrs. at the hospital, I leave, starving and exhausted, with almost no better idea of what was going on than when I'd arrived. However, it seems that the midwife thought/thinks that I am miscarrying but that radiology may have found something alive in there, which prompted the blood tests, and now I'm in limbo waiting for the results on Friday.
I guess I just needed to get that out. Anyway, sorry so lengthy and thanks for reading. Here's to hoping Friday's visit is much more positive and definitive.
Re: F/U on "Light spotting & minor cramps, ugh"
Oh, sweetie! What a day!
Good luck on Friday.
((hugs))
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Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
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I'm so sorry that you're going through this, and I'm pissed that your doctors have left you in the dark on this. I think it should be mandatory that one's doctor and a radiologist be in the u/s room whenever a threatened miscarriage is being examined. It is just not fair to make anyone wait in this situation.
I really, really hope there is reason to hope. Hang in there.
I really hope you get some positive news on Friday, definitely some T&P going your way.
The bloodwork they are getting is still standard procedure for a m/c, they need the Rh levels to know if you are positive or negative, if you are Rh negative they will need to give you a shot within a certain amount of time from when you started bleeding. The beta levels are to get the amount now, and they take blood until your levels get to zero again.
Honestly I hope that the positive thing it sounds like they saw is a really good thing.
((HUGS))
I'm usually just a lurker on this board, but reading your story got me so angry I had to respond and send additional T&P your way. I am also giving your midwife a virtual *slap* right across the kisser for being so noncommunicative and vague. Communication and empathy are usually two hallmarks of the women (and men, but let's face it they are almost all women) who choose to practice midwifery. This should not have happened to you and I hope that you get a far better explanation of your condition and clarity of next steps at your Friday visit. You deserve that.
Best wishes.
BFP #1 5/2010 - Missed m/c at 8 weeks
BFP #2 2/2011
Baby G welcomed with love and relief 10/2011
Surprise BFP 1/8/2013...say what? Baby A arrived 9/2013
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I agree with PP that she might want your beta numbers on Friday and in 4 weeks to see if your HCG levels go back down to zero.
But for now I would also find a different doctor!!!! I called my doctor today just to ask if I can 'hope'! (mind you I got a nurse,but she was very nice ) My point is, you are paying her to take care of you, she should inform you about what is going on with you!
I think she either owes you some information Like "Why did the sono tech say 'Oh there it is!'? Was he looking for a passed fetus and found a heart beat? Was he expecting an empty sac and was surprised to see a baby? Did he see an alien in there?"
Also ask her exactly why she wants more blood work.
I would call tomorrow until I got some answers! To me you have every reason to be cautiously hopeful until you get more answers.
Rylan 1/27/2011, 2:42 pm, 5lbs 12oz, 18.5 inches long
Ayla 10/02/2013, 10:14 am, 6lbs 14oz, 19.25 inches long
Missed Miscarriage 6w3d 3/02/2010
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so sorry to hear what a bad day it was. I would recommend with some of the other replies on looking for another doctor after your friday visit. Make sure you get someone that will tend to your needs and answer any questions and worries. Even if i call my doctors office with a simple question they make sure they have an answer.
Good luck and i'll be praying for you and the baby
This, there really needs to be more sensitivity involved.
I'm so sorry you have to go through all this. I'll be praying for you!
Ben and Maggie - 4/10/09
Mia - 6/16/11
Surprise! due 2/23/17