Bad day...

katenaustin · June 2010

So today has been really crappy, probably beyond crappy but I'll just keep it PG.

LO was up 5 different times last night because of what I am assuming is night terrors, plus woke up an hour and a half earlier then he normally does so needless to say mommy is exhausted and he's really really grumpy. Refused to take a nap except 30 minutes in the van.

Which is pretty much where the bad day all started. After Austin had his breakfast we loaded up to go to the grocery store and when I was getting the stroller out I drop the stupid thing on my foot. Which hurt like hell and left me a lovely bruise. And my sailor mouth woke up LO which put him in just as bad as funk as I'm in.

After we finally got home I called and set up my first official shrink appointment which isn't really something I'm completely interested in. But in order to be able to feel like I'm being a good mother I think it's necessary

After that I called a lawyer who informed me that of course to file for child support I would have to get a court order paternity test, so A) He can't refuse and He'll have to pay for it. After I informed him of the situation of how LO was conceived he told me that his sperm donor would more then like not get contact with him, But I would have to hire a lawyer sense I never filed official rape charges.

After a couple hours on the phone LO decided it was time to be annoyed because he was hungry and sleepy and just plan out bored. So I fed him and was putting him down for a nap and when I was trying to lay him in his crib he started screaming and wiggling and I almost dropped him and that ended up scaring him so he started crying and then finally after 15 minutes he was out.

After that I felt horrible and started bawling. Ended up crying myself to sleep...Which is just ridiculous. One would think the meds my OB prescribed to the PPD would be helpful, apparently I'm a real nut because I don't think they help at all. And right now I have the urge to scrub the whole house down the bleach ten times, but gma and gpa are out tonight so I have no one to watch LO and I have no plans on him sniffing down some bleach fumes. So the OCD will just have to shut up for a while.