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XP: waiting in limbo

first off, i just wanted to say thank you so much to all of you wonderful ladies. i was in (happy) tears reading all your responses to Kelly's updates on me. it made me feel so loved to know that so many people care about me--esp when no one IRL knows what's going on. so thank you. for being wonderful women i can always count on.

update on me...still bleeding. though when i went to the bathroom this last time, it was a lighter flow. it still hasn't been heavy bleeding (yesterday was light-med, now we're back to light). i haven't really had cramps at all, though today my back is aching. and there seems to be some clotting. so i just don't know. also, all of my pg symptoms (peeing constantly, sore boobs, m/s) have all disappeared.

i had b/w done yesterday and they said they'd call with results today. haven't heard anything. she said theyd call and tell me when to come in again to do another set of betas to see if they double. right now, i'm just wondering if they'll call and say the numbers are too low.

i just want to know one way or another. poor DH is holding on to hope, but i just feel like in my gut this is over. if there is a baby still alive in there, it's only by pure miracle, b/c my body is doing everything it can to get rid of it. so yeah, if you could still keep me in your t&p's id really appreciate it. it does help so much. love you all!

~BFP 1: 8/19/09 (EDD 4/26/10); heartbeat 7wks; no heartbeat 9 wks; missed m/c 9/27/09~
~BFP 2: 6/17/10 (EDD 2/27/10); first cycle on clomid; one great week with our little lovebug; natural m/c 6/24/10~
~BFP 3: 10/4/10; (EDD 6/15/11); tried progesterone supplements but numbers kept dropping; had two great weeks with our precious junebug! natural m/c 10/15/10~
~BFP 4: 2/12/11; (EDD 10/24/11); 75iu Follistim for 7 days, Ovidrel trigger; IUI on 1/31/11; HCG at 14dpiui: 180; 16dpiui: 380; 18dpiui: 706; 21dpiui: 1701; 6 wk u/s revealed twins! Praying we'll bring home healthy October twins!~

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Re: XP: waiting in limbo

  • Yall are in my T&P!

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  • Becca, I'm so sorry you're going through this. Sending lots of T&Ps and (((big hugs))).
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  • You are definitely still in my thoughts and prayers.  Keeping everything crossed for you!
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  • KiKiMeKiKiMe member
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    You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry that you are in limbo right now! I hope your LO is holding on tight in there! :::hugs:::
    Started TTC in 2/09. Dx with PCOS in 09/09. BFP on 11/7/09.
    Dx with Ectopic on 12/7/09. Laparoscopy, D&C, and lost my left tube on 12/08/09.
    01/11 = BFP!
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  • (((hugs))) We love you and are thinking about you all the time! I'm hoping for a miracle.

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    The day you first lay in my arms, you made my life complete.
    Aurora Rose born sleeping at 35w on 4-21-10
    BFP#2 {Almond} - 2.1.11 EDD 10.12.11 C/P 2.11.11

  • Oh hon, I am so sorry you are having to endure all of this, I so hope DH is correct in holding out hope.  We are all here for you and I am going to say an extra prayer for you today.  ::hugs::
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  • I am so sorry to hear about all of this... I'll send lots of T&Ps your way, hoping that this is a miracle baby. ((hugs))
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  • You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.  I hope this is just a big scare and that everything is okay.  We're here for you!

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  • You're in my T&P! I hope this is just an extreme scare.
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  • I am still thinking of you and praying.  I am so sorry that you have to be in limbo.  HUGE hugs to you and your DH.

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    You have all of my T&P today!!!
  • You are absolutely in my T&P's. I was so upset when I read the post yesterday, and I'm still trying to hold out hope for you.
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    BFP # 2 - 06/05/10 EDD 02/17/11, DS1 born on 2/14/11

    BFP # 3 - 04/10/13 EDD 12/21/13 - D&C 05/15/13 @ 8w4d

    BFP # 4 - 07/27/13 EDD 04/08/14 - CP 07/29/13


    BFP # 5 - 09/14/13 EDD 05/28/14, DS2 born on 5/22/14 

  • You're definitely still in my t&p. I hope they call with good news!
  • So sorry you have to go through this again...T&Ps that everything is going to be okay.
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    BFP #2: 01/31/2010, Identical Twins died in utero due to TTTS, D&E 05/19/2010
    BFP #3: 09/16/2010, natural m/c 9/21/2010
    PCOS & Bocornuate Uterus Dx 1.4.2011
    BFP #4: 01/11/2011
  • You both are in my thoughts and prayers & I am throwing in big squishy hugs too!
  • Big hugs to you!  You are definitely in my thoughs and prayers sweetie!
    BFP #1- 12/3/09, EDD- 8/7/10, Missed M/C at 8 weeks & D&C- 1/5/10, BFP #2- July 2010, Baby Charlie Born March 29, 2011, BFP #3- 4/12/12- EDD- 12/21/12, Missed M/C at 10 1/2 weeks 5/29/12, D&C 6/1/12- testing results showed triploidy, IF testing all normal, February 2013- IUI#1, femara, follistim, trigger =BFN, March 2013- IUI#2, femara, follistim, trigger= BFP #4, 3/20/12, Beta#1 16dpo= 397, Beta #2 18dpo= 1037, Beta#3 24dpo= 11,589- EDD 11/30/13- It's a Girl!!! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker BabyFruit Ticker
  • i am so sorry...i hate that awful things like this happen to the best people
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  • Hugs. I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

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    BFP #2 via IUI ~ m/c

    BFP #3 via cancelled IUI ~ C (2lb 3oz; HELLP) 5/16/11

    BFP #4 via the natural (free!) way ~ E (8lb 11oz) 9/13/12


  • I'm so very sorry, Becca.  I hate that you're going thru this.  We love you!


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  • My heart is just breaking for you. I will continue to pray that you get good news, and soon. ((((hugs)))))
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  • ((hugs)) you are in my thoughts and prayers
  • I am so sorry you are going thru this. I am sending T&P, love, and lots of hugs your way, hun.
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  • i'm so sorry that you have to go through this horrible situation.  my heart goes out to you & your DH.  
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    Becca, I'm so sorry you have to go through this.  I'm sending you everything I have right now, and hoping beyond hope that everything works out.  {{HUGS}}

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  • I'm so sorry girl. You're in my T & Ps.
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  • Keeping you in my T&P Becca. I am so sorry you are going through this.
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    BFP#2 10/26/10 M/C 11/01/10
    BFP#3 11/28/10 C/P 11/29/10
    BFP#4 02/23/11 M/C 3/1/11
    BFP#5 08/13/11 EDD 04/27/12 Beta @11DPO 8.79 Beta @13DPO 36 Beta @17DPO 179 Beta @20DPO 679!! 6w3d hb 116 bpm! 8w3d hb 164 bpm! 10w4d hb 177-187 NT scan 12w2d hb 173-everything looks great! 14w4d-everything still looks great! A/S scheduled for 12/12!
    Our rainbow baby is here!! Emmalynn Anne born 4/27/12 via unplanned c-section
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  • Lots of t&p.  We're thinking about you & sending lots of love.
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  • Lots of T&Ps your way!!!!
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  • I am so, so sorry that you are going through this.  I will be praying for a miracle for you and that your numbers are still rising and that everything will be ok.  ((hugs))
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    DOR; MFI; hetero factor v leiden mutation

    1/10 - BFP - c/p 4w4d

    3/10 ~ BFP - 4/5/10 - u/s @ 7w6d - no hb; m/c 8w3d

    Tried many interventions:

    9/10 - unmedicated IUI (1.4 million post wash) = BFN

    10/10 - unmedicated IUI (4.5 million post wash) = BFP

    11/10 - c/p 4w4d

    12/10 injects+TI cycle (3 follies) = BFN

    2/11 - IVF #1 long lupron w/ ICSI; 1 embryo = BFN!

    7/11 - IVF #2 antagonist w/ICSI - 3dt of 3 grade A embies = BFP

    7/11 - c/p 4w5d

    10/11 - unmedicated IUI (2.5 mill post wash) = BFN

    11/11 - unmedicated IUI (12 million post wash) = BFP

    12/11 - c/p 4w2d

    12/11 - IUI #5 follistim (2.5 million post wash) = BFN

    1/15/11 - IUI #6 follistim (12 million post - woot!)= BFP!!! Praise the Lord!!!

    Beta #1 (12dpiui) 164; Beta #2 (14dpiui) 514!!!

    It's TWINS!!!!

    Two BOYS!!!!

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  • Super {{hugs}} and T&P coming your way!  I'm holding out for a miracle!
  • (((HUGS))) I'm still praying for you guys. Love you <3
  • I wasn't on much the last couple of days. I am sorry to be just getting this info today. I am so so very sorry for your loss. I hate seeing people come back here. I am glad that you are able to find support here though since you haven't told people in real life. ((((((huge hugs)))))) I will keep you and your DH in my T&P.
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  • I am so sorry you are going through this.  This just isn't right.  (((big hugs)))
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    Lap Nov. 2010 - endo removed

    IVF w/ ICSI#1 - March 2011 - BFN

    FET#1- June 2011 - BFP 7.1.11 - M/C - D&C 9w3d

    8/10 - RPL testing: Hetero MTHFR discovered

    IVF #2 - Sept 2011 - BFP

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  • (((hugs)))
    BFP #1: 5/3/10 Natural MC: 5/11/10 BFP #2: 3/24/11 C/p: 3/29/11 BFP #3: 5/17/11 C/P: 5/20/11 BFP #4: 11/13/11 Daisypath Anniversary tickersImage and video hosting by TinyPic imageImage and video hosting by TinyPic ~*~Congrats to my TTCAL buddies toshbosh233 & clairenmonique, EDDs 4/2011; bekahjen, EDD 5/2011; MCH77, EDD 7/2011; HokieMomma, EDD 8/2011; shanna82, EDD 9/2011; Rachel4127, EDD 10/2011~*~
  • I am so, so sorry honey.
  • Many hugs and T&Ps.
    Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle!
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  • In my T&P!!
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  • So sorry that you are going thru this!!  Thoughts and prayers for you and your dh. 
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