a more content me.
my SIL doesn't work on wednesdays and had offered to come help sometime and while i was hesitant, dh overruled me and told her to come today so i could get some rest and get a break. it's been heavenly to not have to worry about anyone but myself (more or less) for the past few hours. i got a 2 hour nap and a shower. i've been pumping to simulate feedings and SIL's been giving V bottles of expressed milk (which she takes and then sleeps a big stretch instead of wanting to eat again 30 mins later like when she's nursing! what's with that?!).
i still feel guilty every time she gets a bottle even though it's still breastmilk - though usually her bottles come from me needing a break and not being able to cope anymore which is probably part of it. but hopefully this rest will help me out mentally and not just remind me of how nice it is to only worry about myself for a bit.
Re: 2 hour nap + shower =
Don't feel guilty -- a happy mom = a happy baby
Hope you enjoyed your "you" time, you definitely deserve it!!!
PS - How is your baby a month old already, didn't you just have her, like, yesterday?!?!? Wow, time is passing F-A-S-T!
It is hard to let someone come in and help you. I remember feeling the same way even when the help was my own mom.
I'm glad you got a nap and "me" time. I am hoping I have some help when this baby comes in August. I've learned to say yes to offers of help!