I am so fed up with BFing- I've been to a LC 4 times now, but I have Raynaud's (vasospasm) that makes it painful still. If it's not cleared up by Monday with vitamin B6 and magnesium that the LC told me to take, I'll need medication.
LO had trouble latching in the beginning, and even though I feel like we've gotten a lot better, it's still not quite there and I'm ready to throw in the towel. I have to force myself to remember my reasons for why I want to BF, but it's hard to keep pushing through when it is just so easy to give him formula (we've supplemented a few times.) It's just the hardest part of being a new mom right now, and I feel like I'd enjoy being a mommy and my baby so much more if I didn't have to do it anymore
Re: Another FFFC- BF related
Alex (11/14/06) and Nate (5/25/10)
"Want what you have, do what you can, be who you are." - Rev. Forrest Church
Oh dear! I hope things get better for you. That sounds awful
You sound JUST like a good friend of mine. She wanted to BF so badly but she had all kinds of problems and just hated it. Then she felt guilty for hating it. But once she started formula and saw how simplified her life got, she now is fine.
I BF my first son for a year, but we started supplementing around 7 months as he started dropping some feedings. I went through major seperation issues...well, we both did and so much of it had to do with BFing. I said I don't want to go through that again and need to do more bottles, either pumping or formula. I do love BFing, but it does seem sometimes so constraining and exhausting. I struggle with how long I want to do it this time.
TTC #1 since 2007. Dx: Unexplained infertility. 4 IUIs in 2008 = BFN. IVF #1 07/09. DD #1 born April 2010 (40w5d).
TTC #2 since 2011. Dx: Endometriosis and hypothyroidism. 2 FETs in 2012, BFP 6/12 but m/c @ 7 weeks. IVF #2 06/13. DD #2 born March 2014 (40w1d).
I went through the same thing feeling guilty for not enjoying or wanting to BF. I HATED having DS on the boob.....I had big issues and was very uncomfortable with the entire thing. I pumped for a few weeks and that was exhausting in itself.....I stopped pumping a few days ago and DS is getting 3 bottles of BM from my frozen stash and 3-4 bottles of formula every day.....as my stash of frozen goes down we'll up the amount of formula. I still feel guilty some times when I look at him and he's drinking formula.....but I'm SO much happier because I am not stressing out over the BF-ing anymore. I have actually noticed the DS is less fussy as well.....It's almost like he could sence how stressed and upset I was all the time but now that I've stopped BF & pumping we're both so much happier.
Do what makes you happy because it is SO SO SO true Happy Momma = Happy Baby