Hi ladies! I am finally wrapping my head around things, and feel like actually posting may help things feel more real! I am due on January 13th, and this was an unexpected surprise for my husband and I! We had just decided that it wasn't a good time to try due to my husband's upcoming departures with the army, but I forgot to go pick up my birth control for two weeks during the end of an insane semester of grad school, and it turns out we don't have fertility issues! We are excited about the addition to our family, but heartbroken at the timing. My husband will leave in October for another 6 months of training, about 10 hours away from home. Some people have told us that he will be allowed a 24 hour leave through the Red Cross to come see me and baby once the delivery is over- but others have told us that he will only get that if something goes wrong and he needs to come home to help make decisions (aka, me or baby might not make it- obviously not something I am hoping for). My husband will then be deploying overseas around 2012 for a year. So it's a lot of single-momness for me, and it breaks my husbands heart to miss so many milestones for me and baby.
But, we are finally starting to see the excitement in everything, and realize that baby is coming no matter what, and we will love him/her no matter how bad the timing is! We have already chosen my person to help me through everything- we joke that she is my hetero life partner, as she always helps me fill in the time when my husband is gone! She is a wonderful friend and a licensed massage therapist, so she might be more useful for the third trimester anyways! She is coming to all the appointments with us and will help me make lots of videos to send to my husband so he can stay up to date one things baby!
Whew, that was a lot, but it gives a lot of perspective to why I feel a much more quiet joy about this pregnancy, and I am hoping that as I get more into the prep and planning for the baby, that it will become more real and exciting!