PPD after 6+ months...??

Hi ladies! I couldn't be more grateful this board is around more than today...

Here goes: Lately, I'd say for about a week now, I have been what I think is depressed. I have never suffered from depression in my life (aside from maybe being in bed for 2 days and feeling sad after a breakup, but who hasn't?) anyway, after DS was born I went through what I thought were the baby blues. I was sad, tired, anxious, feeling like DS didn't deserve me as his mother, and I would cry almost everyday for about 2 weeks. Fast forward to when DS was two months old and the feelings just............subsided I guess. I fetl fine. I was happy, I couldn't (and still can't) get enough of DS and life was (and still is) good.

Well, about a month ago I began working once again. The first week was really hard, but I was so proud of myself for not crying or feeling blue. I so anticipated going through those feelings once again just because I knew I'd be leaving DS for 8 hours a day, when he was already used to being with me 24/7. Well now, fast forward to a week ago. I find DS beginning to mumble "mama"...I lost it. I have been in this depressive funk for over a week. I'm not feeling the same symptoms from before, but now I'm just feeling lost. Like DS is growing and I'm missing out. I want to attach him to me ALL day and never let him out of my sight. I want to bed share, never let him go and be there for him morning, noon and night. I have been feeling SO SAD, and tired, really tired. I don't want to get out of bed, but I know I have to. The only thing that gets me out of bed is knowing that I have to go to work to support my kid, but if I could, I would quit in the blink of an eye tomorrow. At work all I do is think about DS and I get teary eyed. This is every single day since last week.

I guess my question is: can PPD happen after 6 months? Is this even PPD? I have just never felt this way. I mean I knew I'd be attached to DS, but never like this. I was never the "stay at home" type, but I just can't imagine being away from DS anymore. As it is, I'm playing hookie from work tomorrow just because I miss him SOOO much. I don't know what to do...when I'm with him, I'm happy, but I cry. I cry because I know tomorrow I have to leave again. FI thankfully has been super supportive and knows how hard this is, but he's the only one that knows what I'm going thorugh and even he doesn't know it all.

Thanks for getting this far and thanks in advance for your advice and responses. I'm glad I have somewhere to vent and get some answers..I feel like I'm a balloon waiting to pop...ugh..

Thank you ladies!