So tired I want to cry.

Daisy77 · May 2010

DD#1 missed her bus this morning. Something was up with her alarm clock and while I normally get up with her, I was *exhausted* and slept through mine. I wasn't too worried though as she gets herself up and going each day. Yep, not today. So I had to wake up DS and DD#2 a full 2 hours earlier than they usually would wake up so we could take DD to school.

I am so tired I could cry. Being little kids and all, they're bright eyed and bushy-tailed this morning despite being a pain before bed last night. DS kept finding excuses to get out of bed and DD kept bringing me a baby doll that she insisted needed a hat on it's head.

I fear that DH will call and I will just go off on him. I'm sick of being a single parent. I'm *exhausted*. Every year he says, "This year it'll be better and I'll be home more". Then he gets the urge to expand the business and sometimes we have to take the opportunity while it's there. I know he is working hard and it will all pay off "soon" but damn, when the hell is "soon" going to get here? We have guys that work with him, but seeing as he's the boss, he feels he needs to be around for everything. We rarely go out. The one full day he was home he had a migraine and spent the day laying around watching tv or playing PS3. I take the kids to everything by myself. I'm trying so hard to be supportive because I know he'd like to be home, but I'm running out of supportiveness. I supported him leaving his 8-5 job. I supported starting this business. I have traveled with him to pick up equipment. I take care of the paperwork so he doesn't have to (and so that it actually gets done). I'm his sounding board when something breaks down. Yes, I'm glad our business is thriving, but it's so frustrating to see everything else suffer with only myself to keep it up. Seriously, when is this "soon"?

And I know that this is probably asking for it, but I sure wish caffeine had an effect on me. Even if I got lucky enough for both kids to nap today, they wouldn't do it at the same time just to spite me, lol.

Sweets2005 · May 2010

I'm so sorry

I have had those days. Monday was one, in fact. I was near tears because DD kept me up late and DS got me up early and in between I couldn't sleep due to pregnancy-induced insomnia! I am sure there are plenty more days like this to come.

Maybe I am a bad mom but I probably would have let my DD#1 stay home for a couple hours until the LOs woke up! It's ok to take a pass at being a good mom once in a while! You could have let her lay in bed with you or just relaxed with her until the others got up but that's just me!

I hope your day gets better!

tabi_ja · May 2010

I kinda know how you feel - only it hasn't been as long for me. My hubby is an engineer, and apparently a really good one. His company keeps sending him all over the country to fix problems. In the past six weeks, he's been home a total of 11 days. I totally feel like a single parent, and it's starting to get to me. I just get so frustrated with having to keep it all together by myself with a 7-month-old who still doesn't STTN consistently. Ugh.

I'm sorry. I wish I could help more. Let me know if you want/need to talk. <hugs>

HarrietNJMommy · May 2010

I'm sorry. I hope the rest of the day gets better. I think we've all had these types of days. Hang in there!

Daisy77 · May 2010

Thank ladies:) I think I'm just so tired that getting frustrated is damn easy right now. I'm glad he likes what he's doing and I know that it *will* get better. I just don't know when and that's the tough part. He's also aware of how I feel and doesn't get defensive or anything, it's just the way it is right now.

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