I am having second thoughts about going to my first appt today. I am scheduled to meet with a counselor and go from there.
The last few days have seemed really good so now I am second guessing if I need to go. I also couldn't get up the nerve to tell my husband either. He is very loving and supportive of me but I just didn't want him to think I was a dissappointment and can't handle things. UGGHHH!! I hate this!
Did anyone else feel this way??
Re: Second thoughts...
Yes, I certainly did feel this way. FI is the one who called the clinic for me and made the appointment, then he drove me there and walked me to the door so I couldn't chicken out as he knew I would on my own. I probably wouldn't have made it there without him. The first session was so hard to go to and I ended up sobbing through the whole session but then I actually looked forward to my appointment the next week, knowing that my counselor understood the good and bad days and would help me to move past the bad days faster. She has been absolutely amazing and completely understanding and very supportive.
You are not a disappointment to anyone. Chances are your husband already suspects something may not be quite right. You can tell your husband when you are ready but just know that he loves you as you are and that includes everything you are feeling and dealing with right now.
Please don't have second thoughts about your appointment. You are doing the right thing. The past few days may have been good and may continue but just the fact that you did make an appointment means you thought that something wasn't right. So please know that you are strong enough to walk into that office. For me, getting into the office was the hardest part but once I was there, I knew I had to stay...for myself, for FI and most of all for LO...
I think everyone gets nervous/second guesses themselves before that first appt. But please keep your appt - maybe you'll need help, maybe not, but go and talk to the doc and let him/her guide you.
You are not disappointing anyone - I'm sure your dh would want you to get help if you needed it, go and take it one day at a time!
GL!
Thanks for the words of encouragement ladies! You brought me to tears
I have a huge lump in my throat right now...I am so nervous about this. My appointment is at noon ( less than 2 hours!) I am leaving soon to drop my littlest with my sister while I go. I just want to be happy again......