That felt super weird to type. I haven't wrapped my head around turning 41 yet, beside the fact that I honestly feel like I am only in my early 30s anyway.
So, I am 15.5 weeks. October 14 due date. So far, decent pregnancy, with the exception of two bleeding episodes in the first tri. Otherwise, I feel absolutely great (oh , minus itchy palms and soles of my feet.)
Re: Intro, will be 41 at delivery
DD#1 - January 2008
DD#2 - September 2010
oh and this is our first. and only.
re itchy feet: when the first incident was feet AND entire body, the doc said to take Claritin (daytime) and then benadryl at night. she tested me for cholestatis (which she thought was way to early, and not my issue, but wanted to be 100% sure) and indeed, it was not that. I haven't had full body itch lately, just the palms and feet. for the feet, i have to do my best to scratch during the day - and then at night, honestly, I use a super prickly brush and then coat with lotion.
also, not a day doesn't go by without a lingering thought of : I have lived my entire adult life , from 18 - now, without a dependant. Holyshitt, did we just screw a good thing up?
The more I chill with my friends who are already parents and blazed the trail long before me, and those who also have infants/toddlers, the more I think that we made the right decision.
In summary, I am still petrified.
Yes, having a baby will change so many things about your life. While some things will be tougher (going to the grocery store, planning a night out, and sleeping!), in so many ways, life will likely become more meaningful for you! You will notice small, beautiful things again. Like how your child looks at a flower or responds to a dog or cat. Or the silly way she says a new word. And just wait till the first time he says mama! It's the best 4-letter word ever!! You will get to do things again you haven't thought of in years...like go to a pumpkin farm, and you'll likely have a blast!
Congratulations! I think you made a great decision!
And btw to the "first and only" comment...you may be perfectly content with one child (there are plenty of upsides to an "only" situation), but I had a friend who decided to adopt a second child after their first was a few years old (she felt that she didn't want to have another baby while in her 40s). It's working out well for them.