Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

Had a weird reaction today

I think this is a positive step.  I of course saw a PG lady on the way to work this morning and expected to have the instant reflex of bitterness and jealousy that I've come to know so well.  To my surprise I felt no jealousy or even anger.  My gut reaction to seeing her was just to think to myself "I hope you know how lucky you are to have that big pregnant belly".  And it wasn't a thought of bitterness at all, it was just calm and sincere.  If I'm lucky enough to get pregnant again I will be so grateful everyday.  It was a nice change to feel this instead of the other emotions, I hope it continues!
Natural BFP - 2/13/10, Natural M/C - 3/9/10 (Missed m/c found at 8wks 4days) Prenatal B/W shows I'm a Beta Thal carrier & so is DH. Onto IVF w/PGD... Jan 2011 - IVF #1 - C/P Mar 2011 - IVF #2 - Day 5 PGD, no ET, 5 snow babies May 2011 - FET #1 - BFP!! Twins!!! 2/9/12 - Our precious miracles arrived! Baby A 7lbs 13oz & Baby B 5lbs 13oz

Re: Had a weird reaction today

  • I hope I can get to where you are, being bitter makes me more tired than I already am. You are right though, if I'm fortunate enough to have a successful pgcy I will be grateful every day.
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  • I have had the same "nicer" reaction towards pregnant ladies and those with new babies.  It feels good not to be so bitter all the time.  And I completely agree w/ you... grateful for EVERY DAY!  You will NEVER hear me complain about being pregnant or pregnancy symptoms.  Bring on the morning sickness, acne and bloat as long as I have a healthy sticky baby in there!  

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  • That's great sweetie
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  • imageIzabella22:
    I hope I can get to where you are, being bitter makes me more tired than I already am. You are right though, if I'm fortunate enough to have a successful pgcy I will be grateful every day.

    I totally wasn't expecting that to happen so I guess it just happens naturally when you are ready.  You're right though, being angry and depressed is physically exhausted.  ((Hugs))

    Natural BFP - 2/13/10, Natural M/C - 3/9/10 (Missed m/c found at 8wks 4days) Prenatal B/W shows I'm a Beta Thal carrier & so is DH. Onto IVF w/PGD... Jan 2011 - IVF #1 - C/P Mar 2011 - IVF #2 - Day 5 PGD, no ET, 5 snow babies May 2011 - FET #1 - BFP!! Twins!!! 2/9/12 - Our precious miracles arrived! Baby A 7lbs 13oz & Baby B 5lbs 13oz
  • That's wonderful!  I hope I can get to that point sometime soon.  It is exhausting being this bitter. 

  • imageBlakeG:
    I think this is a positive step.  I of course saw a PG lady on the way to work this morning and expected to have the instant reflex of bitterness and jealousy that I've come to know so well.  To my surprise I felt no jealousy or even anger. !

    OMG - I was just about to write this post. I saw a pregnant woman at work today and didn't cringe! I guess that means we're starting to heal.

  • imageSmallestWilk:

    imageBlakeG:
    I think this is a positive step.  I of course saw a PG lady on the way to work this morning and expected to have the instant reflex of bitterness and jealousy that I've come to know so well.  To my surprise I felt no jealousy or even anger. !

    OMG - I was just about to write this post. I saw a pregnant woman at work today and didn't cringe! I guess that means we're starting to heal.

    Yay for both of us starting to heal a little! Time to start looking toward the future.

    Natural BFP - 2/13/10, Natural M/C - 3/9/10 (Missed m/c found at 8wks 4days) Prenatal B/W shows I'm a Beta Thal carrier & so is DH. Onto IVF w/PGD... Jan 2011 - IVF #1 - C/P Mar 2011 - IVF #2 - Day 5 PGD, no ET, 5 snow babies May 2011 - FET #1 - BFP!! Twins!!! 2/9/12 - Our precious miracles arrived! Baby A 7lbs 13oz & Baby B 5lbs 13oz
  • Thats great! I continue to have bitterness at times. But I did hold a new baby the other night at a party and not cry or get upset. I was really happy for the family. I guess it just takes time.
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