having to start all over again

tekno · October 2008

i didn't think i'd be back to TTC til years down the road and we wanted baby number 2

i was a week short of Trimester 2.

i woke up in the middle of the night last monday with pain in my abdomon.just what felt like menstral cramps. i went to EVERY expacting site i have bookmarks plus 7 more that i didn't. i calmed myself with the reassuances of Round ligment cramps, thinking the started early.

The next morning, i felt them again. after having them go away thru the day, i went about business and went to the bathroom for my morning constitutional. i wiped and was utterly shocked to see blood. i wiped again and it didn't go away. it wasn't much, but it still made me uneasy.

i decided to go to the er.

i get back to triage after half an hour, where they asked for a urinalysis. the second i got onto the toilet is when i started bleeding in earnet. bright red, and clear goo.

the nurse didn't seen worried at all and made me go sit back in the waiting room. although she couldn't deny that i was bleeding. thats all the urine in the cup was.

i waited and waited and waited. i started clotting and bleeding black. they didn't care because i wasn't soaking my sanitary pads. at about 4, with my sister in law and my grandmother with me, i went to the bathroom and i felt my child slip out of me. this was 6 hours after i started bleeding bad.

it took another 8 to be seen. it was almost 10:30 at night and my father who had showed up close to 8 pm was frustrated and wanting to take me on a 40 minute drive to another hospital where we knew i would get seen

i went again to the bathroom and my sister nad mother in law demanded to see how bad i was bleeding. the practically forced the door open and the second they saw if ran for a nurse.

i was immediatly taken to the back.

they did a pelvic exam and a u/s, both confirmed i lost the baby.

so i sit here, wondering, what happens next? what did i do? i did everything that i was supposed to. i took prenatal everyday, drank mostly water and juice, slept on my left side, so what went wrong?

we're going to try again, but how can i risk doing this again?

Erin0806 · October 2008

I don't have ansywers for you, but I'm very sorry for your loss.

Jessimurph · October 2008

I'm sorry for your loss. There's not always a reason or anything you could have done to prevent it.

alwyzbsy · October 2008

I'm so sorry for your loss (((HUGS)))

Krisito · October 2008

There's nothing you could have done and I'm so sorry for your loss.

It makes me so angry that it seems to be a trend that hospitals and doctors don't take m/c or signs of a m/c seriously. I have yet to hear one story of a women going through a m/c who has not encountered a member of the medical community treating them like shiit.