Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

I don't know what to do with myself

Today was dh's first day back to work. I decided to stay home for one more day.  I spent all of yesterday on the couch with the computer.  I felt like if I wasn't on the computer, my mind would just go to dark places.  I don't want to sit on the computer all day but I don't want to watch tv all day either.  I have housekeeping to do but that's not appealing to me either.  I feel terribly guilty about this, but I don't even want to interact with my dog, who I love soooo much.  I know this is crazy but I almost feel bitter towards my dog. In the beginining of my pg he would snuggle with me all of the time. The last few weeks (I guess when the baby died) he started spending more time cuddling with dh.  It upset me and made me feel like something was wrong with the baby (along with other things). I guess I was right.
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Re: I don't know what to do with myself

  • If the weather is nice you should go for a walk!  I know it sounds stupid and I resented everyone who told me to do that, but it really did help.  The fresh air, the sunshine.  just a suggestion!?!?
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Peanut-m/c 03/08 NuNu-m/c 12/08 Ella Grace-stillborn 03/04/10 Itty-m/c 02/11 BabyFruit Ticker "He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us." 2 Corinthians 1:4 Peace B.E.G.A.N
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  • ive been neglecting our husky and i feel horrible.. i know i should take him out for long walks but i just want to get my mind of everything until DH comes home from work... i feel bad about the housekeeping too... theres laundry and dusting and vacuuming and dishes and bills to pay...and i just cant seem to get any energy to get off the couch..lack of sleep doesnt help either...i have nightmares every night and then the dog howls at 6 in the mornin when DH leaves for work... even though its 10:30 in the morning...choclate and ice cream sounds so comforting
    Married 11/08/08 TTC since 2009 MC 3/22/10 at 9w4d MC 7/20/10 at 6w5d Homeowners since 2/24/11 BFP Father's Day 6/19/11 Pregnancy Ticker Psalm 139:13,15-16 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb... You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.
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