Today was dh's first day back to work. I decided to stay home for one more day. I spent all of yesterday on the couch with the computer. I felt like if I wasn't on the computer, my mind would just go to dark places. I don't want to sit on the computer all day but I don't want to watch tv all day either. I have housekeeping to do but that's not appealing to me either. I feel terribly guilty about this, but I don't even want to interact with my dog, who I love soooo much. I know this is crazy but I almost feel bitter towards my dog. In the beginining of my pg he would snuggle with me all of the time. The last few weeks (I guess when the baby died) he started spending more time cuddling with dh. It upset me and made me feel like something was wrong with the baby (along with other things). I guess I was right.
Re: I don't know what to do with myself