My FLAMEFREE Confession of the day

just_peachy · April 2010

I am so jealous of any of you that can breastfeed still.

I couldn't keep up with his demand with me going back to work at 6 weeks (even though it was part-time to help with the bills).

I would've loved to still supply him with breastmilk but had to resort to full formula at the end of 2 months.

Now, he is on GOODSTART which is the only thing he can tolerate but it's expensive and rarely do we ever get coupons.

I keep hearing how wonderful Breastmilk is - the panacea of all human ailments...better i.q., better bonding, immunity...and I just couldn't hack it.

So whenever I see the 'EBF' or "Still Nursing" posts, it makes me so sad that I wasn't able to do that for him.

rcollier_17 · April 2010

Hey at least you tried and he got it for a while!!!! You should pat yourself on the back for that.

SamsMom91 · April 2010

Yup, me too. I never produced anything for either of my sons. With the first, I thought it was just because I couldn't put him to breast right away because he was in the NICU. The same thing happened with my second even though we spent 3 days in the hospital exclusively trying to BF. With the first, I wasn't as upset because we were recovering from a rough birth. With my second, I was crushed. I'm still not sure if I'm going to try it with our potential 3rd child just because I don't want to feel that "loss" again. I don't kick myself over it, but it's a loss I've never been fully able to rid myself of.

babygirl7892002 · April 2010

Sign up for coupons on the Gerber website. I recieve coupons like every 2 weeks ranging from $2-$8 off.

fenway2010 · April 2010

I totally understand! We are not 100% FF yet, but are rapidly getting there. I've been back to work for a month, and I am pumping less and less. And I'm somehow imposing some sort of guilt on myself over giving DS less and less breastmilk, even though I'm doing what I can. It doesn't help that the only time he will nurse is first thing in the morning (even on weekends)...at night if I try to get him to BF, he just wails. I see posts from people who pump several ounces at a time, or talk about over supply, and sometimes it makes me want to cry...

4realyo · April 2010

you sould be proud you were able to do it for so long!

my ffc is that i HATE breastfeeding. I hate it. Im just too damn stubborn to quit. ugh.

RBC · April 2010

I'm so sorry. The most important thing is that your LO is healthy and thriving. Give him extra cuddles if you're missing that nursing time together. You did really well, more than most. Hey, my MIL didn't BF because she didn't like her breasts being big.

BethD76 · April 2010

My Mom recently told me that she was only able to breastfeed me for about two months. My immune system has been fine. She Bf my younger brother for 7 or 8 months. He has caught almost every virus that floats by over the years. Breastmilk is great for babies but doesn't always cure everything. You gave your LO a good start.

userdeleted · April 2010

I know it's hard when you want to do something so badly, and it just doesn't work out. It can take awhile to get over that disappointment.

FWIW, I think that the benefits of breastfeeding are there, but very overstated in a lot of circles. You're feeding your child, and that is what is important. Breastfeeding does not make a better child, or a better mom. You're doing your best, keep it up

just_peachy · April 2010

bless you all!!! thank you so much

goldenleaves · April 2010

just_peachy:

I am so jealous of any of you that can breastfeed still.

I couldn't keep up with his demand with me going back to work at 6 weeks (even though it was part-time to help with the bills).

I would've loved to still supply him with breastmilk but had to resort to full formula at the end of 2 months.

Now, he is on GOODSTART which is the only thing he can tolerate but it's expensive and rarely do we ever get coupons.

I keep hearing how wonderful Breastmilk is - the panacea of all human ailments...better i.q., better bonding, immunity...and I just couldn't hack it.

So whenever I see the 'EBF' or "Still Nursing" posts, it makes me so sad that I wasn't able to do that for him.

This was the exact same for us Crying