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MoFree
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Fill in the blank "I'm really angry that ..."
MoFree
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I'm in one of those moods where I'm pi$$ed at everyone and everything. What's making you really angry today?
I am really angry that so many wonderful people have to go through so much pain (physical, emotional, financial) only to come up empty handed.
On a personal note, I'm really angry that one thoughtless and arrogant young woman has destroyed my husband's physical and emotional well being and in one a few seconds of inattentiveness ruined what looked like a very hopeful and promising future together and I don't know how to get past that anger.
TTC since 3-08
IVF # 1 Dec 2011 BFP
DD born at 31 weeks 6-24-12
FET #1 Dec 2013 BFN
FET # 2 Feb 2014 BFN
No more frosties
IVF #2. September 2014
PGD yielded 2 perfect 5d blasts
SET November 9, 2014
Nov 23, 2014. Another BFN
Not sure where to go from here.
FET #1 Dec 2013 BFN
FET # 2 Feb 2014 BFN
No more frosties
IVF #2. September 2014
PGD yielded 2 perfect 5d blasts
SET November 9, 2014
Nov 23, 2014. Another BFN
Not sure where to go from here.
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Re: Fill in the blank "I'm really angry that ..."
I'm really angry that we all have to go through what we do. I'm really angry that we all feel so helpless and not a lot of things can remedy that for an extended period of time.
Oh wait - you only asked for one
Your anger is totally understandable Mo. I can't remember - are you seeing a therapist?
TTC in 2008. Stage II/III endo, Hashimotos hypothyroid, low morph (3%).
2 cycles Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/Crinone=BFN.
IUI #1 - 4 Follistim/Ovidrel/IUI/Crinone = BFN.
IVF #1 - Antagonist w/ ICSI 4/10. 17 retrieved, 5DT of 2, BFN
IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
Lap 7/21/10
IVF #3 - Clomid/Antagonist w/ ICSI 10/10. 14 retreived, 3DT of 3, BFP 10/20 but m/c. No HB 11/15/10 - D&C 11/17/10.
FET - 2 blasts, 1 survived the thaw. Transfer 2/19. Beta #1 3/1 375, Beta #2 3/3 885, Beta #3 3/8 4261, Beta #4 3/11 9005. U/S 3/8 1 sac 1 yolk, U/S 3/16 1 heartbeat 114bpm!
James born Oct. 24th 2011 via c-section at 38 weeks!
Surprise BFP - Jack born April 28, 2013 via VBAC after PTL at 33 1/2 weeks!
that there is so much loss everywhere. Why can't babies just stick and be an automatic guarantee in 9 months.
Well said, and completely agree. I find that as much as I hurt for DH and I, I hurt for all of you. Coming on the IF board I see that some have dealt with this hardship for so long, going through numerous treatments with continuous road blocks. No one should have to go through this, and it's sad that so many people do.
Diagnosed PCOS & MFI-Success with IUI
Hmmm....
Agreed to your statement about people having to go through so much pain.
On my personal note, I'm angry that I allow day-to-day test results impact my mood so much.
I sent you a PM... didja get it?
Today I'm really angry that there has to be so much pain in the world for kids. I know what we all go through is hell but in the past 24 hours I've learned of two kids that I know back home that are hospitalized and neither are expected to make it. 17 and 11 years old. It absolutely makes me sick.
TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs
FET #1 Dec 2013 BFN
FET # 2 Feb 2014 BFN
No more frosties
IVF #2. September 2014
PGD yielded 2 perfect 5d blasts
SET November 9, 2014
Nov 23, 2014. Another BFN
Not sure where to go from here.
I'm really angry that.... 14 years ago I got sick with Crohn's disease, went through 4 straight years of treatment, finally had a full colectomy, and now am battling IF as a result. I'm really angry that.... people who want babies can't have them and people who don't want babies, can.
Thanks for posing that question, I needed that vent!
TTC since August 2008
IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
"Let it go, this too shall pass."
This!
It makes me f'ing mad that there is so much hurt, loss and struggle on this board for so many women who don't deserve it. Why do such sh!tty things happen to good people?
I have been thinking a lot about the women who've suffered losses, especially late losses as there seems to have been a few lately. It makes me so sad. Also Mo, I hate that b!tch who hit your husband, and every reckless driver (especially driver/texters) on the road.
I definitely have anger issues! (and yes I am seeing a therapist!)?
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Early loss 10/08
Lap 1/09
IVF #1 "natural IVF" - 1 egg retrieved, missed m/c
Tried several mini-stim cycles with no response
Switched clinics - dx'd as carrier for Fragile X
IVF #2 MDL protocol Jan/Feb converted to IUI, BFN
IVF #2 take 2: Antagonist, one embie, BFN
IVF #3: Antagonist, no fertilization
One last ditch effort at OE IVF (antagonist with Clomid) cancelled
DE cycle #1 Jan/Feb 2011, BFP, ectopic
DE cycle #2 June/July 2011 - BFP
10/28/11 Baby girl lost at 17 weeks due to pre-term labor. We love and miss you.
DE cycle #3 June/July 2012 - BFP, twins, both heartbeats stopped, D&C
2 frosties but don't know what's next
FET Dec 2012: BFP! Praying this one sticks for the long haul!
TTC since October 2007 DX: MFI
#1 & #2: Fall 2009 - 2 rounds of Clomid - BFN's
#3: April 2010: IVF w/ ICSI - BFP but then....blighted ovum, D&C 5/26/10
#4: 8/27/10 - FET = BFN
#5: FET #2 - 10/28/10, 2 embryos... BFN
#6: IVF w/ ICSI & AH ER 3/5/2011; 6-day trx 2 blasts 3/11 BFP!!! HB @ 6weeks but it was gone a few days later. D&C 4/8/11
#7: IVF w/ ICSI & AH ER 8/29/11; 6 day trx 2 blasts, BFP!! (3 totsicles too) HB seen at 7 weeks, but was gone at 8.5 weeks. D&C 10/14/11 HEARTBROKEN!!
#8 FET - 4/6/12, 1 embryo.....
**** SAIFW ****
On a personal note, I'm really angry that one thoughtless and arrogant young woman has destroyed my husband's physical and emotional well being and in one a few seconds of inattentiveness ruined what looked like a very hopeful and promising future together and I don't know how to get past that anger.
I am so sorry that you have to deal with this and if I was you I would be horribly angry too =(
This exactly. We can't control what our bodies will do, that most of us have to pay OOP adds insult to injury. FU whoever is denying us coverage, you are an asshat.
I'm really angry that this board exists. Don't get me wrong, I love you ladies and I couldn't ask for a better group of women to walk this journey with, but IF shouldn't even exist.
I'm angry at the b!tch that cut me off in traffic this morning. I should have let her hit me, I could use a new car. And to top it off, she was on her phone.
I'm angry for Mo because of her situation and I wish that she wasn't going through this. Because of your H accident I don't talk and drive, I've never texted while driving, but I've stopped talking while driving and my DH and I have made a pact to never go to bed mad or leave mad and to always tell each other we love each other.
12/99 - Miscarriage at 12w - 6/08 - BFP - Miscarriage at 8w, 9/08 - BFP - Miscarriage at 8w2d, 12/08 - Found out I am a carrier of a Balanced Translocation between Chromosomes 8 & 16, 8/2010 - DE IVF = FAIL. 12/18/10 - Surprise BFP! Awaiting our Sticky Miracle! 12/20 - Beta #1-1208 * 12/27 Beta #2 - 6002 1/3/11 Beta #3 - 17,146. Beautiful little heart beating away! Stick little one, stick!
♥ Brielle Skye born August 17th, 2011 ♥
Especially this and I hate seeing so many young girls including 2 nieces and a 17yr old cousin have babies like they have nothing else to offer this world. It really pisses me off.
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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Today I am really angry about the loss that my friends have experienced. I'm sad that extremely deserving women can't have babies and that people who are on drugs get to have them every day. I'm mad that my friends don't understand my IF. I'm mad that I can't give my husband what he wants more than anything else in the world..
Also...I'm mad I'm fat
...30 pounds down...I'm working on it.
Agreed. I hurt for all of you so much. You are so deserving.
I'm really angry that so many people take for granted the fact that they can just have sex and make a baby without even thinking about ovulation, cycles, medicine, procedures, tests, doctors appts, financial issues, etc.... while those of us with IF never get to really enjoy the "baby making" process because the "medical apsect" of it that we have to go thru to even have a chance at pregnancy takes away from that natural moment!
Oh, and Im really angry that all states don't have some sort of mandatory coverage for IF treatment - most states act like it is a "cosmetic/electric" procedure ....like we choose to be IF?!?!
Thank you for this post.... it felt good to vent