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So terrified of another bleed...

AnneUCSBAnneUCSB member
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I was just released from hospital for the second time following bleeding/clotting episodes resulting from my complete placenta previa.  The first happened at 25 weeks and was a pretty minor bleed.  The last bleed happened early this week when I woke up with my pants SOAKED with blood and fluid (thought my water broke but it didn't turn out to be amniotic fluid- thank god) and passed some very large blood clots (sorry TMI).  I was in the hospital for about 3 days on bedrest and just discharged home to continue bedrest here (as I have been doing for 4 weeks now).  

I am just SO scared of this happening again.  I know there is nothing I can do to prevent it and I am adhering to the doctors orders here at home (even though I have two busy boys at home age 3 and 5).  I could barely sleep last night because all I could think of was last time I was in my bed I woke up in a pool of blood/fluids and it was terrifying.  If it happens again, I will be in the hospital for the duration of the pregnancy until I deliver.  It would be SO hard to spend 6+ weeks in the hospital away from my boys.  They have a hard enough time when I am there for only 3-4 days at a time.  My 3 year old told me, "I am MAD at the hospital!" and wouldn't even let me hug him with my arm that had my hospital bands on it :(

Thanks for letting me vent.  Just wondering how any of you ladies out there are coping with the fears and anxieties of a high-risk pregnancy and the possibility of delivering early?  I should mention that I work in a NICU so I probably "know too much" about preemies and all that can go wrong.  I just want to fast forward time and be able to bring home and strong and healthy baby! 

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Re: So terrified of another bleed...

  • ijackijack member

    If you didn't have other children at home I would tell you to admit yourself to the hospital. I spent 6w on bedrest and as much as it sucked to be stuck there, I always had help just a call button away. When I had a huge bleed they were there to tell me it wasn't that much or to help me through it and I knew if I ended up bleeding out that they were right there to help me and the baby.

    It sucks :( I had my daughter 2 years ago and if I start AF in the middle of the night I still freak out because I wake up bleeding. Good luck to you! I hope you're pg much longer :)

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  • kamcfarlanekamcfarlane member

    i had a fairly significant bleed from a previa as well. after my last bleed, i was petrified. it only lasted a few hours though because i started contracting and we delivered DS that night.  the first time i got my period after i had DS, i freaked out and had to talk myself out of calling the dr!

    i'm so sorry that you're going through this. i can't give much advice, but hang in there. (((hugs)))

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  • Stacey222Stacey222

    [Sigh] I am so sorry you are going through this.  I am having bleeding too and I am at 21 1/2 weeks so far.  I am so nervous just trying to make it one more day, then one more week...I just want to hit 24 weeks.  Then, when that comes, I just want to make 28 weeks.  Then I just want to make 30 and then 32.  So, for me, it's one milestone at a time.

    I had bleeding on and off for 2 weeks...that latest one being the heaviest (kind of like you described).  I was in the ER twice and the hospital once for 3 days.  I am home now on bedrest and since I came home 1 week ago, I haven't had a bleed (fingers crossed). 

    I don't have a reason for my bleed - it's not previa - they aren't sure what it is.  So, that part is F-R-U-S-T-R-A-T-I-N-G.  I wish I could be like the Hallmark commercials where I could happily enjoy my pregnancy and the different stages/trimesters, etc.  But I am on edge...you are not alone.

    I try to control my anxiety by focusing on the fact that - so far - the babies (b/g twins for me) are doing awesome on their vitals, ultrasounds, etc.  Cervix is good, long and closed, heartbeats are strong, plenty of amniotic fluid and no evidence of why we are bleeding.  So, I take comfort in that.  Also, I take comfort in acknowledging that some people can go through a healthy, term pregnancy with bleeding throughout.

    Hang in there and keep your eye on the prize!!

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