DH doesnt want to be a Dad...(sorta vent)
DH and I work together and so get to see each other multiple times a day. I dont know if he was freaking out or what but today he decides to tell me at work that he doesnt want kids and never did. He tells me that we didnt talk, really talk about it and now we're pregnant. I reminded him that we made the decision to stop all birth control together over a year ago. I reminded him that we had talked about it at least a few times since stopping BC. I know that a lot of this is fear. Fear that he wont be a good dad. Fear of dirty diapers and vomit. Fear of how much kids cost. We had decided together to try. We decided together one and we're done. And he has even said in the last month(multiple times), that he'd be okay with twins. After our first MC, he said we could try again. He says he can already see how we are changing and how our marriage is changing. He's not happy about the lack of sex (my fault: scared of spotting and I'm freaking exhausted!).
He did say he is a little excited. And I did my best to reassure him that fear is completely normal. I told him that things will change as we get further along. I bet when he can feel the little sea monkey moving around, he becomes even more excited.
*Sigh* I just needed someone to listen...
Re: DH doesnt want to be a Dad...(sorta vent)
I just want to give you a world as beautiful as you are to me.