Oh ladies I have missed you ALL so much!!!!! I just learned the other day of this new board... and I have to applaud whoever thought of this wonderful idea!!!! I felt a little uncomfortable posting on TTCAL not knowing anyone! Plus there was soooo many new girls on everyday [=(] that it got depressing and a bit confusing!
How is everyone??? Please fill me in, please!!! FB only does so much!!! I want the scope, the DL on everyone!!!
I'm still in Ohio.... still job hunting for Florida.... and still TTA [=(]
Honestly I am scared to death to get knocked up again, scared to death!!!! It's been since August when I had my D&C, and I am still avoiding the conversation, avoiding ku friends and patients, the baby aisle, just everything!! How long am I going to be like this??? I try to be happy for others, I try to be excited about trying again... FAIL! I then start to freak out and get pissed and scared all over again!!! I even thought taking a bump break would help, it may have made it worse!!!! Is there anything I can do to help myself out???
Re: :::waves HELLO:::
Nice to see you again. I agree that this new board rocks!
Sorry you are still having a tough time. We lost the twins in September and I know how you feel. Some days I am ready to go and others I could crawl in a ball and hide. In all honesty...I started seeing a therapist and it has helped me tremendously. I don't know where I would be without her right now. She has played a huge roll in getting me to this point.
I hope the job hunt in FL goes well. GL!! ((Hugs))
Jenn
3 IUI's all BFN
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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