Intro with lots of questions
I'm new so here's my story:
I recently had my second m/c in 6 months, but this one was very different from the first. With my first, I went in for my first appointment at 9 weeks to find that the embryo had stopped growing at 5 weeks. A couple of weeks later I opted for the Cytotec to speed up the process, but it didn't work. I finally miscarried on my own 4 weeks after the first ultrasound.
When I got pregnant again after just 2 cycles I was elated but scared to death it would happen again. And just as I feared, when I went at 9 weeks it wasn't good news. My doctor said my uterus was so full of stuff that she couldn't see anything. She thought it was a molar pregnancy, but my hCG levels disagreed with that theory. A few days later I had a D&C to remove all of the tissue filling my uterus. I was never even told if there was any sort of embryo or not this time. All of my tests from the D&C have come back negative which is good, but I am terrified this will happen again.
I have so many questions...Am I just some sort of freak because neither of my experiences seem typical? How do I stop being so jealous of all of the pregnant women and new moms around me (my sister and a sister-in-law are both due right around my due date for my 2nd m/c)? Those of you that have gone through this numerous times, how do you cope?
Re: Intro with lots of questions
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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I am so sorry about your loss. Big Hugs!
Sorry I can't really answer your question as I'm in the same boat
Katie: 1/16/08 2lbs. 15oz.
Abby & Emily: 12/31/10 6lbs. 2oz. & 5lbs. 7oz.
I am very sorry you have had to suffer two losses.
I would talk to my doctor to get some clarification about what happened with the second pregnancy. As far as being jealous of other moms, I can relate. The sting will probably lessen over time, and I'm sure you'll have your healthy baby soon.
GL to you.
I don't know if I can answer this for you. Every day is a different day for me. Some better than others. A day does not go by that I don't think about my losses or how badly I want a forever baby. I just finished reading the book, Coming to Term. It is very informative... maybe too much at times.. but it has been helpful for me. A lot of people have other books they have liked, you could ask around.
Sorry for your losses and I hope you can find some peace.